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A long time in a galaxy far, far away, everything was completely different from what was written in the history textbooks at the demand of the rulers and their rivals.
The teenager received abilities one didn't want. A happy life is destroyed, and survival and freedom can become empty words. But if the world wants to turn you into a toy, you can make it play your own game with you.
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Note: Self-consolation scribbles. I found a great Star Wars game but couldn't even get past the prologue because the controls were so complicated. This fanfic is NOT like that game. And it is AU for SW. I specifically try not to show who the character is, a boy or a girl, what their appearance is, so that readers can choose all this themselves, like in a video game.


— 6 —

Emil, thanks for the preliminary reading.

The investigator arrived at the Academy an hour after my Force let the side down. The investigator interrogated not only me and Sliffe but also everyone who could even slightly see the scene on that bench.
I realised belatedly that there was video surveillance in the park. And the investigator saw what essay I was writing and what clause I was preparing to say.
There is no doubt that the investigator is a former Sith or Jedi, or both. Otherwise, he would not have understood anything about the incident.
"Don't worry, Eirian," said one of the school psychologists who had been monitoring my interrogation. "They'll catch this brat."
As soon as the investigator arrived, the Academy sent all the students to the medical room for a checkup. The teachers allegedly wanted to find out if the Force had harmed anyone. Yeah, right... The investigator is looking for someone with an elevated midi-chlorian count.
I managed to convince Sliffe, who was dragging me to the nurse, that I was fine. Now, I must wait for the secret Forcean to complain to their parents about the medical procedure that was performed without their consent. Strictly speaking, the boarding school has the right to make medical and legal decisions of minor and moderate importance on behalf of the parents, but they can always intervene.
Unless it's a student and not a guard or a gardener.
I wonder, can parents be able to take their child from the boarding school quickly?
Mine Mum and Dad will at least try. I hope someone else will come to pick up their children too, which will cause more noise and distract attention from me.
At home, I tested my blood while I was wearing the talisman I made similar to the tattoo that disappeared. It showed a normal number of midi-chlorians. But now they're going to test me with the latest technology, and I'm not sure this talisman will hide my damn mutation.
I answered the investigator's questions, thinking about what he had found. He is too easy to accept "I didn't notice anything, I didn't understand anything, I was in a swoon" from a direct participant in the events.
And I also urgently need to talk to Major Tucker.
"I need to go to the lavatory."
The psychologist was clearly tired of sitting through interrogations of underage ones, and she immediately attacked the investigator, saying that the interrogation was harmful to a minor with health problems.
The investigator let me go and gave the report to the psychologist to sign. I didn't look at what was written because I hadn't said anything serious anyway, and the psychologist is responsible and careful; there are no others in the expensive school and she won't allow the investigator to write anything unnecessary.
I ran to the restroom. Of course, it's impossible to talk in a stall with no roof and a huge gap at the bottom so that the sensors can only detect one user in the stall (to combat potential violence, yes). But there's a utility room next to the lavatory with a cleaning droid. And Tucker taught me how to use it to make room for secret calls. Jedi wisdom, he said. The Sith had more freedom. It was not much, but it was better than nothing.
I rang Tucker's emergency number. He promised to answer it any time, day or night, no matter what he was doing.
I told him about how the Force had suddenly appeared and disappeared. And I asked:
"The police and the army have many Forceans. No one is hunting them. Why should I hide?"
"Life is shit," Tucker said. "It's not fair. You know that, having had so many illnesses since infancy. And the universe is full of idiots. They believe that people who have been both Sith and Jedi and then escaped are safe for Kadvir. But a Forcean child could potentially become a Jedi or a Sith, and therefore an enemy. The Big Republic has attacked Kadvir four times. And the Empire has done it three times. All seven times Kadvir has given the aggressors a good beating, but no one here has forgotten anything. Kadvir is formally neutral, but the Empire and the Republic are enemies to all of us. Especially now, as the Empire slides back into famine due to government regulation of the economy and the Republic seeks to show its strength against another wave of separatism."
Tucker sighed.
"It's complicated for someone your age, but I'll try to put it simply. Kadvir is afraid that the Empire and the Republic will try to distract their citizens from their problems by attacking us. And our government has reasons for that. The Republic and the Empire are run by idiots who, instead of improving the lives of their citizens, want to ruin the lives of all their neighbours so that their citizens don't envy them."
"But why not teach the Kadvir Forseans to use the Force in a way that would be useful to Kadvir?" I didn't understand.
"There's no use for the Force, buddy. None at all."
"But why?" I insisted. "Show business, for example... Only one child in a hundred can study music. And one in ten thousand of those who do become musicians. But even in municipal schools there is a music course with a dozen different specialisations, and musical-instrument factories are flourishing. The same goes for painting and dance."
"Music has been a huge industry since prehistoric times, kid." Tucker laughed sadly. "So have dancing, painting and cooking. No matter how much AI can do these things, talented people are still needed. If the Force could make money, schools would teach it like maths. And engineers would find a way to use the Force for everyone. Adapters, transitions... You use an AI music arranger tuned to your emotions. And video games still require live artists; restaurants boast special dishes from a live chef. And the Force... It's zero."
"Well…" Tucker seemed embarrassed. But he said decisively, "Oh, well, you're already taking sex education classes. Near the Foreign Legion base, there's a throng of prostitutes of all sexes and races hanging around 24 hours a day. They're waiting for the next legionnaire to get a day off and go squander his weekly pay. When I juggled beer cans without touching them or made funny figures out of straws in the air, prostitutes would have sex with me for free. I saved faster for my first house, which I rented out. In a real war, without stupid blasters and worthless plasma, it is not the Force that helps, but a bulletproof vest and the ability to shoot better than the enemy."
"But the world is changing," I persisted. "Many things that were not needed before have become useful now. Especially in the entertainment industry. Economists say that video games, toys, and pet care products make more money than mining. If you can be an arranger and even a composer via an adapter, why can't you grow midi-chlorians on farms like potatoes and sheep?"
I phrased my question crookedly, but Tucker said:
"Try it, buddy. Why not? Maybe you really will make the Force a sought-after commodity. A lot of children and parents will thank you when the Force is taught to everyone in regular schools, like operating a computer."
"Children and parents..." I repeated, trying to catch the escaping thought. And I said, "In the army and other security agencies of Cadvir, married employees or single parents are considered more reliable. Major Tucker, have you noticed that only those who were happy with their parents as children became renegade Jedi? Anakin Skywalker, Count Dooku, Xanatos…"
"Luke Skywalker was loyal to the Jedi, he revived the Order, even though he grew up in a happy family."
"No, " I said. "When a child calls his guardians 'uncle' and 'aunt' and not 'Mum' and 'Dad,' he is unhappy. Leia is also an adopted child, but she had a Mum and Dad. The family of Breha Antilles-Organa, her adoptive mother, was kind enough to Leia to feel at home there and to consider the planet Alderaan as a piece of her. And this despite the fact that the family is royal, that is, with dashes of madness and quirks. But the Skywalkers tolerated Luke as something alien that would eventually pay for itself by making a true farm heir for them. For farmers, the son they pass on their land to is the meaning of their lives. Farmers always love their children very much. You fought in the Frontier Belt; you saw how farmers treasured their children. The Skywalkers did not treat Luke that way. And unlike the Organa family, they didn't adopt a second child. Winter was also happy in the Organa family and got on well with her half-sister. And Leia was a very strong Forcean, but she didn't become a Jedi or a Sith. At the same time, Leia and Winter were loyal to the Republic. Or to their ideas of what it should be. And both sisters had their own families: marriage partners, children, and all that. The sisters loved their nephews and nieces and were taking them in and looking after them as if they were their own children when one of them had to go away on business."
"You may be right, Mx. Gwalchtan," Tucker said. "When I remember all the transitions from one side to another, I see most family persons who lost their family to the Dark Guard or the Light Order. Even Kylo Ren, the brainless loser, was loved by his family. Winter always took care of him, and Leia tried as best she could to provide a comfortable environment for her underdeveloped but generously Force-gifted son. It was not her fault that there was no choice but the equally underdeveloped Luke, who also never had a real family. It's unlikely that Leia seriously thought that 'Two morons are strong,' but she sincerely believed that two pathetic people could support each other and be happy away from ridicule. Moreover, Luke had many other students who were equally deprived of intelligence, and Kylo had the opportunity to make friends."
"You think all those stories about Palpatine, Luke, Rey, Darth Maul and the rest were real? They don't stand up to criticism! Just think of that ridiculous attack on the Imperial space base, or Death Star, or whatever it was, with bombers made out of containers for collecting space junk in planetary orbits."
"Don't mix flies with cutlets, Mx. Gwalchtan. Rebels and terrorists have made effective weapons out of worse things. And they've attacked successfully. A container for collecting junk as a bomber is a great idea, if you look at it from an engineer's point of view. But controlling the bomb release with a remote control like a home TV, rather than from the onboard computer, is nonsense. Only a degenerate would think of such a thing. But for the technical thinking of the Empire and the Republic, this is not surprising. Why do you think little Kadvir has defeated such large and heavily armed states so many times?"
"And the meat attacks?" I asked.
"For systems like the Empire and the Republic, human life has no meaning. That's why the rebels fight with flesh, not droids. The first thing the instructors at the Kadvir Army College say when they analyse this operation is that the fighters and bombers had to be unmanned, and the people controlling them remotely had to be hidden behind a wall of droids. And if for some reason the use of fly droids with AI, remote control and all that is impossible, then a small sabotage group is used, which enters the object, destroys it and returns home. The cost of a thousand large AI droids and the training of a small sabotage group is the same in money and in the number of soldiers saved from your army. It is not for nothing that the Empire, the Republic, and the Rebels break all records for the number of deserters. A self-respecting soldier will not stoop to serve in such an army. And when a soldier does not respect himself, the army always loses the war."
"The Empire is a little smarter," I noted.
"And that's why it attacked Kadvir three times, not four. As for the people you mentioned... Even if they are fictional, their story is completely reliable from a psychological point of view. An army commander doesn't study it as deeply as a psychologist, but it's impossible to command people in battle without understanding their souls. So you can certainly learn from the example of the Jedi-Sith-Rebel crowd how not to act."
"Why did you leave the Sith, Major Tucker? You were in the Guard from birth."
"I fell in love with a guy from my fencing group. And he returned my feelings. In the Empire, same-sex relations are punishable by death. So Eloy and I fled to the Big Republic, which, unlike the rest of the galaxy, isn't afraid of the Force and also doesn't execute gays. Alas, we had no other path in the Republic except to become Jedi. But the Light Order immediately told us about the taboo of any personal feelings, sent us to different planets to finish our studies, and forbade calls and letters. But we heard about neutral states with same-sex marriages. Aloy fled to the Trade Federation even before I fled to Kadvir. It wasn't that it was a neutral state, but he settled in well. He has a husband, two children cloned from their combined biomaterial, and a good career in the security of commercial shipments." He paused for a moment and added, before I could ask if he was still on the line, "Eloy suggested the escape. And he remembered his family. He missed them. They wrote to each other when they could. It was rare, but it was a living family connection. After Eloy fled to the Trade Federation, part of his family moved in with him. The second half of his family were Imperial fanatics and disowned him and the first half, but Eloy still had a home."
Tucker laughed bitterly.
"If you, my friend, make the Force a useful commodity, that will be great. If not, don't worry. The world is full of worthless things. The main thing is to take care of your life. Save your skin always and everywhere. There is nothing wrong with that, especially when you have a family."
"And I have quite a few jobs," I added. "Major Tucker, you may not believe this, but the owners of corporations always feel responsible for the people who work for them. None of us are benefactors, but in business the dependence is mutual. Without the people, we will go broke; without us, they will not get food and a roof over their heads."
"Why, Mx. Gwalchtan, I believe it. All the more reason to be careful."
I said goodbye and returned the droids to the utility room. Luckily, the noise raised by the investigation distracted everyone, and no one noticed that the droids were cleaning the john for too long.
I walked along the corridors and halls of the Academy to listen to the gossip. The directorate was full of parents who wanted to pick up their children. In some places along the corridors, children argued with their parents, not wanting to leave. And there was good news: almost all parents forbade their children to be tested for midi-chlorians, insisting that their children were normal, and therefore the Academy was insulting them with the suspicion of mutation. Well, it's all clear: almost all parents decided that excess midi-chlorians could have accumulated as their precious kid grew up and therefore hid their offspring from meeting the Jedi and Sith as best they could even before these very midi-chlorians were found.
"Tina Alverist," I heard a stern and categorical female voice, "you will go home right now! You will finish middle school in the municipal system, and instead of high school, you will go to a two-year sergeant course. By the time you reach adulthood, you will have a trade and a full school education. And after a year's service, you will begin training at the Army College by order of the command, or resign, because you will understand how much real military service differs from the movies."
I realised that this was Tina's mother. They were quite similar; only the mother was red-haired, and Tina was blonde.
And Tina's mother was a Forsean. I felt it. And I realised that she saw the Force in me.
I didn't know what to do. And I was very scared.
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Small fanfic stories about "Baldur's Gate 3", written during the first playthrough to calm down my own emotions.
Gen, philosophy, politics, a little romance without eroticism.
The game is not finished yet, so it will be continued.
Wyll fans should not read this! Tav is not an angel! There is a slash. The rest is at your own risk.

— 2 —

"I'm curious about one thing," Astarion said thoughtfully. "If this old junk is really a great and powerful wizard, why couldn't he get food for himself? He hunted a rabbit and two birds and sat hungry."
"Like you can cook," Gale grumbled, annoyed that no one in the camp treated his teacher with respect. "Do you even know what a 'kitchen' is, blueblood?"
"A well-bred nobleman, even a duke, always prepares the main course himself for an honoured guest." Astarion looked at Will. "Yes, Blade of the Frontier?"
"Daddy was not born into the nobility, but was given the title for his heroic deeds. And he took lessons from the palace cook so as not to be ashamed, because he only knew how to cook scrambled eggs with sausage. But even as a boy he could roast his prey on a bonfire."
Gale frowned. And Karlach snorted:
"A lazy, stupid scammer who likes to eat for free. I wouldn't trust a wizard like that to bewitch even old boots."
And she jabbed her finger into Tav's chest.
"You said it was his grandpa!"
"I didn't think you'd heard our conversation," Tav replied. "I didn't want to bother you."
"Soldier, I've been hunting devils for so many years that now I can hear a butterfly flying a kilometre away from me. And if I was sure that this swindler was not Gale's family, he would have lost his head immediately. And with the badass grandpa, you'd have to ask Gale first."
"He's not badass!" Gale was indignant again. "This is my friend and teacher, the most powerful and the wisest!"
"And he betrayed you," Lei'zel typed. "A friend would not come to demand your death, but to advise how to avoid such a fate."
"And if Mystra's neck had to be twisted for it," Tav added, "the friend would not hesitate."
"That's very true, soldier," Karlach smiled with satisfaction.
"Yes," Lae'zel snapped. "A true goddess must distinguish useful adepts from mediocrity and appreciate them. And for explosions, there are too many goblins and goblin-like creatures. If they die for the Absolute, they will also die against she."
"I told you right away, Gale," Karlach added, "it's not a goddess, it's shit. As you can see, I am not the only one who understands this."
To Gale's chagrin, no one was going to admire his selfless sacrifice. They only scolded the fool and demanded that the Mystra be sent to places Gale had never even heard of in the Yawning Portal of Waterdeep. Wyll and Shadowheart also added their no less malicious advice.
Only Astarion, strangely enough, listened in silence and did not, as usual, even begin to mock Tav's habit of meddling in other people's affairs.
And Tav was just looking somewhere in his thoughts, barely perceptibly smiling at them.
"When I become the Absolute, this Mystra will explode by herself. And then I will resurrect her, and she will explode again. No one dares touch those who belong to me."
"My cake," Astarion whispered in his ear. "I can hear the master's thoughts better than others. And yours are so exciting... Will you show me your power tonight?"
Astarion's heart fluttered. Tav could refuse. The only one in the world who could. Tav was not yet under Astarion's love spell, but he still had many who wanted to warm his bed for truly sweet caresses—Tav proved to be the most wonderful lover. And in a strange way, it all fascinated Astarion himself. And if you add Tava's goal... It became more and more of a trap for the elf-vampire.But Astarion had no intention of giving up. It is not yet known who will win!
And gently, imperceptibly to others, he kissed Tava's ear. And measured, waiting for an answer.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/60267364
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Small fanfic stories about "Baldur's Gate 3", written during the first playthrough to calm down my own emotions.
Gen, philosophy, politics, a little romance without eroticism.
The game is not finished yet, so it will be continued.
Wyll fans should not read this! Tav is not an angel! There is a slash. The rest is at your own risk.

— 1 —

"Whoever this Absolute is, but first of all, she's a complete fool." Tav roasted pieces of meat and tomato strung on a thin twig over the fire. They took a short rest not far from the road.
"Why?" Gale wondered.
The Absolute scared him. But at the same time, she beckoned with huge magic.
Lae'zel snorted disdainfully.
"She got in touch with the Mind Flayers. Do you not understand yourself?"
Tav shook his head.
"No. This is not a reason, but a consequence. She has no allies other than Mind Flayers and goblins because she's a fool. And Absolute is a fool because she wants to turn everyone into an obedient doll without their own will. This means that she will be forced to do everything herself, from interstate agreements to cleaning cesspools in cities. A wise manager delegated things to interpretive subordinates and gave them full freedom to decide everything according to the situation. "Go to that place, act on the situations, and bring me the prize." The role of the ruler is to set the direction, but not to rush into business. And to observe how the path to the goal changes due to changing circumstances. The world is constantly changing, so a leader is needed to adjust the routes. And the fool Absolute acts as if the world is static. She tries to make it like that, but it's impossible."
Gale looked at Tav in surprise, and Lae'zel nodded.
"Yes. Vlaakith gives an order, but how it is carried out is up to the Githyankis themselves. So the sooner we get rid of the tadpole, the better. Who knows when this abomination will awaken and turn us into Mind Flayers and slaves of the Absolute? We are lucky that our tadpoles are sleeping, but it will not last forever."
Astarion was silent. It would be unwise to draw attention to himself now. He was forced to reveal himself as a vampire last night and now remains in the group only through the patronage of Tav, whom he has convinced of his usefulness. But if the band insists, Tav will banish Astarion, and that means death. Astarion will not be able to hide from his former master-kidnapper alone—he stole once; he will steal again. And then death will be better for him than punishment from Cazador. Astarion doesn't have the strength to fight back, and who knows if he ever will? There is no reason to even dream of a second escape, because the first one was only successful because of a lucky accident. The second time, fate will not be so generous. And Astarion, as a born nobleman, is not very good at earning money either, but he did not want to live with beggars in flophouses or collect clothes in donation boxes near temples.
Therefore, it is necessary to conquer this group, not the best but still very useful, in which Astarion suddenly found himself.
But it takes time to manipulate the whole band, not just Tav.
And since Tav is the decision-maker here, it is necessary to conquer him first of all. Sex is a sure-fire tool, and there is no one better at it than Astarion. Tav has already agreed to receive compensation from Astarion for the bite in the form of sex. And after the next night, he will be like wax in Astarion's fingers, wanting more and more caresses from him.
Maybe.
There was something strange about Tava. An otherness that made him unlike anyone Astarion had ever known.
And it was exciting. For once, sex for profit will be pleasant. Many years ago, when Astarion sought the position of Magistrate, things were much worse with influential lovers and mistresses. If it weren't for the entertainment in the brothels, it would be completely unbearable.
And Tav... At that time, Astarion would have seduced him simply for his own pleasure—even when he had already become a magistrate, and people themselves began to try to pay him not only with gold but also with sex.
"It follows from this," said Tav meanwhile, "that the Absolute herself has long since turned into a toy in the hands of the courtiers. But they are also just as stupid; otherwise, they would not have tried to choose the same path. Unless they have bet on their band of those who don't have a tadpole. A flock of shepherds and brainless sheep. It doesn't work either, because for a sweet life, managers still need people to wash wool, spin, and sell clothes. And those who will buy it. The case of Absolute is doomed just like her puppeteer. But it won't be tomorrow. We run a high risk of not living to see it. And at the same time, we have a chance to get huge opportunities and make life much better for ourselves than it was. If we are careful and prudent."
"Nothing useful can come from Mind Flayers!" cried Lae'zel. "This is disgusting! We must get rid of all this!"
"I said nothing of the Mind Flayers or the Absolute. I'm only talking about the power that these fools have and use ineptly. Power itself is neither good nor evil. It doesn't even have its own will. It's just a thing that anyone can take. Think how useful and important you will be to your queen and how she will reward and promote you when you gain more power than now. Do not answer immediately; just think without haste."
Lae'zel pouted at him like a child coaxed by her father to eat wholesome oatmeal.
"Tsk'va. I hate it when you're right!"
Astarion froze. Tav wants to become Absolute?! It's... Why not? He has already done a lot that others have not been able to do. At the very least, Astarion will get a lot of use out of it, maybe even find a way to destroy Cazador and his entire vile pack. And he will have time to escape if something goes wrong with Tav.
Therefore, Astarion needs to convince him of his loyalty. And inflame in him an unbearable thirst for Astarion's body.
Astarion was an artisan of both, long before he became a vampire. But Tav also proved to be far more difficult than high-ranking Baldurians and even Cazador, his former (okay, not quite former) kidnapper and master.
And yet Astarion refused to give up
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Дрібненькі оповіданнячкі-фанфікі по "Baldur's Gate 3", написані по ходу першого проходження для заспокоєння власних емоцій і для мовної практики. І так, я граю українською.
Помилки перевіряв безкоштовний ШІ для школярів.
Джен, філософія, політика, трохи коханських стосунок без еротики.
Гру ще не пройшла, тому буде прода.
Прихильникам Вілла не читати! Тав не янгол! Слеш є. Решта на ваш ризик.

— 6 —

Астаріон легко спокусив відразу двох Арфістів на секс. І хоча це знаходилось далеко за межами їх звичок і смаків, і вони обидва мали зацікавленість один в одному, та ще жінка була незайманою, а парубок взагалі ніколи не бажав сексу з чоловіком — Астаріон зміг їх швидко переконати. І залишити дуже задоволеними цим вчинком: вони навіть дали йому кров і прямо казали, що не проти все це повторити наступного вечора.
Коханьске мистецтво Астаріона не пошкодилось. Він, як і раніше, міг досягти чого завгодно через секс.
Добре, ні чого завгодно. Інші вміння теж потрібні: маніпулювати словами та сенсами, забалакати й обдурити. Тут Астаріон був майстерним ще у ті роки, коли добивався посаду магістрата.
І все ж секс і солодки слова були найкращою зброєю. Завжди успішною.
Але на Тава це не діяло. Як він і казав у першу їх ніч, "це тільки розвага". І розважався не лише з ним, ніскільки не цікавлячись, із ким і як розважається Астаріон.
І це дратувало. Навіть розлючувало.
Досі тільки один Казадор міг ігнорувати хитрощі та зваблення Астаріона. Та й то лише після укусу. А зробив його Казадор, коли Астаріон був майже мертвий. Хтозна, кому судилося би стати рабом, зустрить Астаріон Казадора у своєї повній силі.
Але цей клятий Тав!
Він не повірив, коли Астаріон дуже палко розповив, що несподівано для себе закохався до нього. Але не сперечався, коли Астаріон зізнався, що сам не знає, чого бажає та які почуття має до Тава. Він лише кивнув і тепло потиснув руку Астаріона, коли тот сказав, що залишитися у гурту Тава і біля самого Тава було би для нього, Астріона, приємно, і що він зацікавлений подорожувати і шукати позбавлення від пуголовка та інших халеп разом з гуртом Тава.
І нічого не змінилось. Якщо місце у ліжку Тава буде в якусь ніч вільним і з'явиться бажання у самого Астаріона, можна трохи та найдуже приємно покохатися. Чи не згадувати про це ніколи, розважаючись з купою інших. Обидва варіанти рівнозначні.
У цьому і є проблема, зрозумів Астаріон. Тав не пред'являв на нього права. Астаріон вільний піти в будь-яку мить. Але при цьому Астаріон не міг відмовити Таву в жодної просьбі. Це було сильніше за будь-який наказ Казадора.
Невизначеність зводила з розуму.
А тут ще Тав зруйнував єдину надію Астаріона дізнатися, що Казадор написав болючими шрамами у нього на спіні. І Астаріон, попри люті та обуренню, не зміг кинути Тава.
Але зараз настав час усе вирішити. Покласти край усім нерозумінням.
Астаріон урівався в намет Тава.
— Хто я для тебе? Іграшка? Попутник? Якщо ти мій володар, так відповідай за це! Якщо я вільний, не вирішуй за мене!
Тав, спокійний, як і завжди, граціозно (і, холера його з'їж, дуже сексуально!) перебирав струни лютні.
— Тебе ніхто не примушує слідувати моїм рішенням, — казав він так, ніби розмова йшла про страву для вечері. — Ти можеш піти сам. Як і раніше, я кажу, що разом боротися зручніше та більш шансів на перемогу. Але вирішувати тебе.
— Разом?! Це коли ти зламав угоду з Рафаелем, яка стосувалася мого життя, була спільна боротьба?!
— Якщо усі шляхи ведуть до Брами Балдуру, то у Браму Балдуру можна прийти різними дорогами.
— Та невже ж?! — отруйно здивувався Астаріон. — І як ти це плануєш зробити? Тільки без дешевої філософії!
— Найпростіше та очевидне — допитати труп Рафаеля, коли Юрґір вб'є його для мене.
— Що?! — Астаріон настільки вразився, що навіть сів на килим. — Ти збожеволів?
— В Райтвіні ти на власні очі бачив Коріллу, вірну шпигунку Рафаеля. І це не перший випадок, коли Рафаель надсилає її стежити за мною. — Тав глянув на Астаріона впритул. — Він не зупинитися, поки не зробить із мене свою річ. Чи перетворить на раба когось із мого гурта, щоб шантажувати мене. А може, хоче зробити рабів із нас усіх.
— Я не про це, — пробурмотів Астаріон. І вскочив. — Рафаель має надзвичайну потужність! І його сила тільки зростає от зустрічі до зустрічі.
— Ти знаєш, хто такий "ортон"?
— Диявол. Бойовий диявол, на відміну від звичайного, як той же Рафаель.
— Це не просто бойовик. Ортони — це мисливці за силою, абсолютне віддані своєму володарю. Тупі, щоб не скористалися силою сами, а віддавали господарю. Потужні та водночас спритні, щоб полювання було вдалим. Увага, питання: навіщо спраглому до могуті дияволу тримати у глухому кутку і тим більш бажати смерти для джерела своєї сили?
— У Юрґіра є причина для помсти, — зрозумів Астаріон.
— Так. І коли він своїм убогим мозком це усвідомлює, Рафаель швидко покине цей чудовий світ з усіма його вимірами.
Астаріон із сумнівом похитав головою.
— Але Рафаель все ж занадто могутній навить для ортона. Він боягуз, тому уникає бійки. Але є але.
— Тому я на цю бійку візьму Лей'зель, Карлак і Вілла. Вони люто ненавидять дияволів, тому охоче кинутися в бій. І вони найсильніші бійці у таборі. І не тільки у ньому. Юрґір буде головним тараном, ми станемо гуртом підтримки. У Рафаеля шансів не залишитися.
— Це маячня. Це неможливо! — відрізав Астаріон.
— Саме теж ти казав, коли я пішов у Підмрок.
— Ти завжди повний несподіванок. — Астаріон знову не знав, що думати. З одного боку Тав зіпсував його мрію, з іншого — саме Астаріон був найбільш імовірною жертвою для Рафаеля. І, на відміну від холерного Тава, не зміг би захиститися навіть через пуголовка.
— Стій, — Астаріон усвідомив ще одну річ. — Ти береш до бою Вілла, а не мене? Змінюєш мене на цього бовдура?
— Ниття Вілла швидко вб'є не тільки Рафаеля, а ще сотню його гостей, чи не так? — усміхнувся Тав.
— Це не час для твоїх жартів! — обурився Астаріон.
— Що ж… Якщо без жартів, то відсутність мозку та надлишок ниття не заважають Віллу бути найчудовим бойовиком. І крім цього, у настільки важкої бійки може бути ситуація, коли треба підставити когось одного під удар, щоб врятувати увесь гурт. Юрґір мені ще знадобиться. Лей'зель і Карлак тем більш потрібні. Та ще ці дівчинки мені подобаються як товарищи для мандрівок. А відсутність Вілла не помітить ніхто в ні у чому. Через це я і дозволяю такому нестерпному зануді, як Вілл, доси залишатися у таборі.
— Іноді ти лякаєш мені більш, ніж Казадор, — відступив на декілька кроків Астаріон.
— Мої ідеї працюють, — байдуже відповів Тав. — Завдяки їм ти досі живий. І вільний.
— Ні. Я не дарма кличу тебе "мій володарю".
— Немудро тягнути ліжкові слова у реальне життя.
— Це не ліжкові слова! — запальне скрикнув Астаріон. І додав тише: — Я не знаю, що ти зробив зі мною, але твоя влада значно більш той, що мав Казадор. З ним я був слухняним поріддям, маріонеткою, і ненавидів свою покірність. А ти керуєш мною так, що я боюсь залишиться без твоїх наказів!
— І шукаєш, де мене продати покоштовніше. Чи як використовувати. Продажний суддя скрізь однаковий. Але я — не твій начальник у Балдурському суді, на мене твої лестощі, зваблення та інші маніпуляцій не діють.
— Я нік… Так, це усе було. Тільки ідіот думає, що життя вищих ельфів легке та приємне. Коли розмовляєш з вищим ельфом, завжди чекай на ніж у спину. А якщо твоя родина — це дрібний незначний клан… Я хотів жити. Мені не було приємно лестити і смоктати старим продажним дурням в мерії, щоб посаду повигідніше отримати, але навіть це краще, ніж вдома чи в кланових спілках.
— Звичайно у шляхетських родинах, — помітив Тав, — чиновниками стають молодші діти, яким не отримати спадок.
— Так і було. Непотрібний зайвій рот, який повинен повернуть гроші, що були на нього витрачені в дитинстві. Вони навіть шукати мене не стали, відразу визнали мертвим! А могилу вчинили як для безрідної худоби! Цвинтар в Балдурі, не родинний склеп.
— Романтичні панночки дістають хусточки та ридають, — пирхнув Тав. — Але ти у час перебування магістратом не страждав. Навпаки. Де-не-де твої веселощі досі пам'ятають.
— Звідки ти… — почав Астаріон і зупинився. — Зентарін. Вони знайдуть будь-яке брудне нижнє, тільки гроші дай. Але вони не можуть знати, як ти змінив мене. — Він подивився на Тава, розвів руками. — Так. Усе це було. Я бачив наївного дурня, який рятує волоцюг і друїдів, панькається з нікчемними дітлахами та збирає невдах по дорозі. Легко вкусити. Легко звабити і змусити закохатися. Але… Для тебе наші ночі все ще незначна розвага, а я сам закохався.
— Брешеш, — усміхнувся Тав.
— Так. Але не знаю, хто ти є. Ти не є жертвою. Не є ціллю. Не є зупинкою на одну ніч, яку хочеться забути. Але… бодай йому, ЩО ти тоді таке?
— Твій поки що єдиний шлях до виживання та помсти, чи ні? — Тав ніби не був через це злим. Навіть спокійно грав щось затишне. — І ти мене забудеш, ледве все це закінчиться чи ти знайдеш дорогу покращ. — Він знизав плечима і казав: — Це є порядок речей у світобудові.
— А хто я для тебе? Ти не бажаєш помсти. Тебе не важко вижити на самоті. Ти завжди маєш, кого покласти в ліжко. Навіть Лей'зель стрибає туди з величезною охотою у будь-який час. Навіщо я тебе?
— Для крадіжок і шахрайств у шляху. А після всього цього… Адже вампіри ніколи не зникнуть із всесвіту, вірно? І мені потрібен хтось розумний і розважний, щоб тримати їх у міцній вузді. Ти прагнеш влади. Збіг інтересів наявний.
— Крім одного, — гірко відповів Астаріон. — Саме нас.
— Коли самотужки ти вирішиш, чого саме хочеш від нас, проблема зникне.
— Ти нестерпний! — знову розлютився Астаріон. — Ненавиджу тебе! І бажаю…
Тав відклав лютню.
— І я можу тебе поцілувати?
— Твої поцілунки ще гірше, ніж твоя кров.
Тав легенько розвів руками та знову потягнувся за лютнею. Астаріон його зупинив.
— Їх неможливо забути. Неможливо не бажати постійно. — І він сам забрав губи Тава поцілунком. І застогнав солодко, задоволено, коли Тав перехопив ініціативу, привласнив Астаріона у поцілунку.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/60094774
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Дрібненькі оповіданнячкі-фанфікі по "Baldur's Gate 3", написані по ходу першого проходження для заспокоєння власних емоцій і для мовної практики. І так, я граю українською.
Помилки перевіряв безкоштовний ШІ для школярів.
Джен, філософія, політика, трохи коханських стосунок без еротики.
Гру ще не пройшла, тому буде прода.
Прихильникам Вілла не читати! Тав не янгол! Слеш є. Решта на ваш ризик.

— 5 —

Галсін здивовано оглянув коробку з медовими тістечками, яку протягнув йому Тав, і обережно взяв тендітну річ.
— Дякую. Це несподівано та дуже приємно. Шкодую, що не можу нічого запропонувати у відповідь. Хоча… Почекай!
Він поставив коробку на пеньок, перетворився на ведмедя й швидко зібрався високо на дерево. Незабаром спустився, тримаючи у пащі квітку орхідеї. Тримав обережно, за довгу ніжку. І перетворився на людину, витер стебло та приладив квітку до волосся Тава.
— Тобі личить цей колір, — задоволено посміхнуся Галсін.
Тав посміхнувся у відповідь.
— Дякую. Я люблю квіти. Хочу дім посеред саду, повного квітів. Я не пам'ятаю мого минулого, але є почуття, що я хотів цього завжди.
— Чесно казати, я не люблю сади. Рівні стежки, геометричні клумби. Фігури з зелені. Це неприродне.
— Я теж не люблю регулярні сади, — відповів Тав. — Вони ніби воскові. Нудні. Але є такі, що мають вільну форму. Натуральну, як у справжніх галявин.
— Насправді? — зацікавився Гасін. — Можеш розповісти про це детальніше?
— Навіть покажу. Ґейл навчив мене робити малюнки з магічного світла. І хоча все буде бузковім, ти зможеш зрозуміти більш-менш точний вигляд тих садів. Малювати я не вмію, але пуголовок покаже тебе мої спогади безпосередньо. У мене мало що залишилось, але сади, в яких, можливо, колись гуляв, пам'ятаю.
Галсін сів на пеньок, поклав коробку з тістечками на коліна. І зацікавлено глянув на Тава. Той посміхнувся в відповідь і начарував малюнок.
Галсін охнув вражено, побачив кам'яні гірки, невеликі, іграшкові, але природно виглядавши озера, стежки між квітів і кущів, які малі той самій звивистий вигляд, що і у лісі. Самі кущі та клумби не були чітких форм, але їх нерівності завжди робились такими, щоб пестити погляд.
— Це неймовірне! — захопився Галсін. — Невже ж люди хоча б десь почали розуміти природу?
— Як бачиш, — Тав сів на ствол дерева, что колись тут обрушилось. — Не думаю, що вони далеко просунулися на цьому шляху, але початок зробили. Навіть дорога в десять тисяч миль починається одним-єдиним кроком.
— Це вірно, — кивнув Галсін. — І слова підібрані гарно.
— Це дуже давня приказка, — посміхнувся Тав. — Одна з моїх улюблених. То, що я пам'ятаю попрі усьому.
— У тебе мудре серце, якщо у ньому міцно оселились таки речи.
Галсін попробував тістечко.
— Чарівне! — він почав задоволено лимзати частування. І дав одне Таву. — Хоча це й твоє, але не можна їсти на самоті.
Тав помахом руки прибрав магічний малюнок і взяв тістечко, легенько торкнувшись пальців Галсіна.
— Ти розумієш сенс в ласощах, вірне? — посміхнувся Тав.
— Авжеж! І ти у цих справах добре розбираєшся, тако ж?
— Це не мені судити. Треба запитати того, хто з'їсть ласощі зі мною разом. Я можу лише обіцяти багатий вибір смаків. У таких справах фантазія ніколи не завадить. Як і трохи гарячих страв.
— Дуже вірно! — зареготнув Галсін. — І вельми приємно побачити такий розумний підхід.
— Зараз пора до шляху, — відповів Тав. — Але після кожній подорожі буває час відпочинку. Якщо прикрасити його будь-яким смаколиком, це буде непогано.
— Мій намет завжди готовий для такого гостя.
Тав посміхнувся задоволене і пішов до табору збиратися до чергової подорожі.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/60094774
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Дрібненькі оповіданнячкі-фанфікі по "Baldur's Gate 3", написані по ходу першого проходження для заспокоєння власних емоцій і для мовної практики. І так, я граю українською.
Помилки перевіряв безкоштовний ШІ для школярів.
Джен, філософія, політика, трохи коханських стосунок без еротики.
Гру ще не пройшла, тому буде прода.
Прихильникам Вілла не читати! Тав не янгол! Слеш є. Решта на ваш ризик.

— 4 —

Все-таки шляхта — це діагноз. У цьому Тав впевнився, коли Астаріон почав отруйно вихвалювати його "велике серце" та "бажання завжди чинити правильно".
— Розбуди мозок, — порадив Тав. — Бісини працюють, торгують і покупають. Отож платять податки. А яка користь з гоблінів? Пограбували, поламали, прожерли, просерли та знову пусті кишені. Зате скрізь додалось сміття і пацюків с чумою.
— Друїди не виробляють нічого, — буркотнув ображений Астаріон. Він не для того заманював Тава на відокремлену галявину, щоб розмовляти про справи.
Але Тав бачив тільки їх. І казав:
— Тому друїдський гай — це постійний ринок збуту надлишків того, що відроблять бісині. А це усе знову податки. І відсутність необхідності роздавати за кошт казни хліб голодним, щоб уникнути бунта. Поки є торгівля, у людей багато праці, і вони купують значно більш речей, ніж шмат хліба. До того ж друїди варять і продають багато ліків і зілля. Це корисно. Неможливо мати виробництво всього потрібного в одному місце. — Тав посміхнувся. — А у Місячних Вежах, мій милий Астаріоне, є не тільки керувач усього цього безладу, у який ми потрапили, і його талісмани великої влади. Це ще торгові шляхи, ферми, багато замовлень на будівництво та все таке інше, чому зараз шкодить Тіньове Прокляття. Це все гроші на солодке життя правителя. Абсолют — дурна істота, якщо зробила ставку на гоблінів, прокляття та цейво. Вони легко доступні, ніби придорожні бур'яни, але й користи з них стільки ж.
— Та ти стратег, моє серденько, — задоволено посміхнувся Астаріон. — Це надзвичайне. Той герцог, що керував Брамою Балдура, коли я був там магістратом, такою здатністю не виблискував.
Тав, як і завжди, пропустив його лестощі повз вуха. Він думав. І це турбувало. Роздуми Тава завжди закінчувалися пригодами для дупи Астаріона, але не тими, що ведуть до насолоди.
А Тав промовив:
— Ти знав більшість законів, коли був магістратом. І після, коли полював на майбутніх рабів у нічних шинках і на веселих вулицях, не міг не дізнатися про їх зміні.
— Ти це до чого? — насторожився Астаріон.
— У якому віці людина ставала повнолітньою у Балдурі сім років тому?
— У двадцять один і тоді, і зараз.
— То як Мізора змогла укласти угоду з малоліткою? — запитав Тав. — Ця комерція недійсна.
— О, ти про це… Вона двічи дійсна. З шістнадцяти років будь-який балдуріць має право самостійно та своєвільне укласти будь-яку угоду про свою власність на суму не більш тисячі золотих монет. Душа — це власність Вілла. І людська душа безцінна, а тому, — Астаріон витончено зробив зневажливий жест, — вона не коштує взагалі нічого. Сімнадцятирічний Вілл як балдуріць міг торгувати нею скільки завгодно. Крім цього, він тоді був принцом. А його повнолітність починає діяти у шістнадцять.
— І принц, що рік як повнолітній, отримує звісточку, що десь у в місті діється злочин, але йде туди сам, без доброго гурта варти і без підкріплення, яке чекає на деяк випадок, тому що герцог кинув це місто без охорони. Але ніякого бунту оний герцог не отримав, коли їхав з міста. І розвідка герцога не стежила за злочинцями та сектантами, однак місто при цьому досі не зруйноване, навіть процвітає. Зате герцог підозро легко та швидко виженив принца. У Балдурі син герцога успадковує его титул і владу?
— Коли як… Звичайне одна династія керує три-чотири покоління, а після панівна родина змінюється через придворну змову чи черговий хвацький найманець з Полум'яних Кулаків примушує герцога оголосити його наступником в обмін на вільний виїзд дружини та дітей цього герцога з країни. Іноді герцог сам укладає угоду з найманцем, щоб той захистив його від власних діточок і після зречення від трону на користь цього найманця допомог йому безпечно поїхати до інших земель. — Розповідав це, Астаріон почав роздумі: — Ти хочеш сказати, що Алдер Вороній підставив невдалого сина, щоб одружитися та отримати нового наступника?
— Скільки дітей не отримай від нової дружини, а все одно спадкоємець Вілл. Нову дружину та її дітей це не потішить. А значіть будуть змови та інтриги.
— Це має сенс, мій улюблений друже. Але герцог досі самотній.
— Хтозна, скільки у нього позашлюбних дітей? Не сидів же він сімнадцять років без сексу.
— А зараз, — кивнув Астаріон, — він може вільно вибирати проміж байстрюками, кого визнати офіційне та оголосити наступником.
— Вілл з дрібного віку отримав виховання керівника. Це, крім манер та фехтування, ще юриспруденція, економіка, стратегія. Але він вміє тільки шаблею махати, заливатися вином і танцювати. Та й то останнє не дуже добре, — реготнув Тав. — Тобто це навички будь-якого дешевого найманця з будь-якого придорожнього шинка Фейруну. Він навіть не зміг отримати роботу молодшого товарного керівника чи глави служби безпеки при квартальному союзі торговців. Або керувати охороною купецьких обозів, як усі більш-менш здатні найманці.
— Він і не намагався це зробити, — помітив Астаріон. — Вілл хотів бути народним героєм, рятувати мешканців від чудовиськ.
— Керiвник і герой потрибни однакове, але це дуже різни людини, і для них не можна обіймати посади один одного. Але Вілл цілком провалився і як герой: без постійного керування від командира він може тільки влипнути до халепи. Вілл марній скрізь. Крім торговців віном, звісно. І це показує, що інтрига герцога мала сенс.
— Іноді ти дивуєш навіть мене, — казав Астарін. — Несподівано чути від тебе схвалення цьому вчинку.
— Герцог не викинув сина на вулицю голим, — помітив Тав. — Він відправив його на самий у те роки безпечний бік кордону, де Вілл мав постійну та непогану платню, казенну квартиру та багато вільного часу на його улюблені заняття. — Тав пальцями зобразив склянку й танці. — Цей посад занадто краще, ніж Вілл міг знайти самостійно. А як і куди Вілл по власній волі вліз, у які халепи потрапив — це не герцога провина.
— Згоден, — відповів Астаріон. — Але для чого це все?
— Мізора розраховувала, що герцог ринеться викупити душу сина, але тільки отримала непридатний товар, який ніяк не може збути з рук. Вона чимало мені заборгувала за те, що я досі не повернув до неї її мотлох. А підтримка дияволиці вельми корисна на пути до Абсолюта. Особливо коли моя інтуїція мене не підвела, і Мізора дійсно вляпалася в лайно у Місячних Вежах. Тоді вона буде змушена чимало заплатити мені за врятування. І це будуть не гроші.
— Чудовий задум, красеню, — посміхнувся Астаріон. — Я з задоволенням підтримую тебе на цьому шляху, мій улюблений володарю. А зараз ми можемо насолодиться твоєю владою інакше. — Він обійняв Тава.
— Непоганий план, — Тав так поцілував Астаріона, що у того закружилась голова.
Вечер безперечно вдався!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/60094774
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Дрібненькі оповіданнячкі-фанфікі по "Baldur's Gate 3", написані по ходу першого проходження для заспокоєння власних емоцій і для мовної практики. І так, я граю українською.
Помилки перевіряв безкоштовний ШІ для школярів.
Джен, філософія, політика, трохи коханських стосунок без еротики.
Гру ще не пройшла, тому буде прода.
Прихильникам Вілла не читати! Тав не янгол! Слеш є. Решта на ваш ризик.

— 3 —

Коли Тав переплутав заклинання та замість того, щоб наділити гурт легкістю пір'їни, обрядив Тінесерду в рожевий обладунок, вона була у люті. Тем більш, що це було неможливо змінити до довгого відпочинку у таборі — у магії свої закони. Тінесерда не повірила, але Ґейл слові Тава підтвердив.
Тінесерда зітхнула та підкорилася поганої доле, лише молилася Темної Пани, щоб дала сіл це витримати.
А дали були чергові руїни з не в міру діяльними невмерлими. І велике дзеркало на стіни.
Тінесерда не хотіла у нього дивитися, це для клірикині негідно. Але раптом побачила.
І сховала дзеркало до рюкзака.
Чого не заперечуєш, коли розмова йде про Тава, так це те, що він має чудовий смак на одяг. Навіть позамежна незграба Ґейл після його порад перестав виглядати ніби селюк на ярмарці (чи ярмарочна мавпа) і перетворився на файного кавалера.
Вілл, зануда нестерпна, спочатку чинив опір вимогам Тава одягнути найдуже екзотичне вбрання, але програвши у кістки (Тав махлював, Тінесерда це бачила точно), підкорився. І став таким цікавим парубком! Навіть у Лей'зель слинки потекли, а шинкарки скрізь пропонували йому "трохи солодкого за рахунок закладу" — поки він мовчав, звісно. Ледве Вілл рота відкриє, від нього, як і раніше, усім хочеться втекти як можливо дали, навіть до мізкожерів.
Але оскільки у ліжку не розмовляють, Тінесерда запропонувала Віллу скоротити час очікування у таборі, коли вони неробно бовталися із кута до кута, інтимною грою.
О, Темна Пані! Цей йолоп злякався та засоромився ніби друїдська незайманка!
Як таке непорозуміння змогло зрости при дворі герцога, Тінесерда не могла встигнути.
І трохи потішилася з Воло. Ну треба ж остудити кров після невдалої розмови с красенем-імпотентом.
У скиту Шар не дарма казали, що для леді нема краще ліжкової іграшки, ніж бард.
А ще у леді завжди є дзеркало.
І раніше Тінесерда зневажала їх за це. "Потягни за сумочку і отримаєш душу жінки".
Але зараз у голови вперто крутилася думка, що трохи вбрання не пошкодить, пока вона не у скиту.
І це усе дуже міцно з'єднувалося зі спогадами, які розбудила клята шляхтоніжка.
Та щоб гобліни Тава з'їли! Це він змусив її скористатися цим грибом. Теж нашахраїл, напевно.
Але все ж Тінесерда була йому дуже вдячна. Повертати себе для себе виявилось вельми приємним.
І Тінесерда не хотіла це втрачати.
А зараз ще ці обладунки… Тінесерда бачила заздрість жінок і захоплення чоловіків від її вигляду. І себе бачити у дзеркалі стало раптом приємно.
Тінесерда боялася, що не захоче повернутися до скиту. І це лякало. Вірність Шар була сенсом її життя.
Вона не знала, що робити без скиту. Але запитала Тава, що краще купити у торгівця. І перший раз у житті взяла то, що бажала, а не то, що треба. Дуже файну сукню кольору смарагда й золота Та ще вишукане чоботи для неї.
І зараз милувалася собою у дзеркалі.
Решта почекає. Ці всі справи можна вирішити пізніше.
"Завтра. Я подумаю про це усе завтра".
https://archiveofourown.org/works/60094774
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Дрібненькі оповіданнячкі-фанфікі по Baldur's Gate 3, написані по ходу першого проходження для заспокоєння власних емоцій і для мовної практики. І так, я граю українською.
Помилки перевіряв безкоштовний ШІ для школярів.
Джен, філософія, політика, трохи коханських стосунок без еротики.
Гру ще не пройшла, тому буде прода.
Прихильникам Вілла не читати! Тав не янгол! Слеш є. Решта на ваш ризик.

— 2 —
— Мені одне цікаво, — роздумливо сказав Астаріон. — Якщо цей старий мотлох дійсно великий і могутній чарівник, чому він не міг собі їжу добути? Заполював кролика та двох пташок і сидів голодним.
— Ніби ти вмієш готувати, — буркотнув Ґейл, обурений тим, що ніхто в таборі не сприйняв його вчителя з повагою. — Ти хоча би знаєш, що таке "кухня", блакитнокровий?
— Добре вихований шляхтич, навіть герцог, завжди сам готує головну страву для шановного гостя. — Астаріон подивився на Вілла. — Так, Клинок Фронтиру?
— Тату не народився серед шляхти, а отримав титул за подвиги. І ходив на уроки до кухаря при палацу, щоб не зганбитися, вміючи готувати тільки яєчню з ковбасою. Але підсмажити на багатті видобуток він міг ще хлопчиськом.
Ґейл похмурився образливо. А Карлах пирхнула:
— Лайдачний тупий шахрай, люблячий пожерти нахаляву. Такому чарівнику я не довірю замагичить навіть старі чоботи.
І вона тицьнула пальцем у груди Тава.
— Ти казав, що це був його дідусь!
— Я не думав, що ти чула нашу розмову, — відповів Тав. — Не хотів тебе турбувати.
— Солдате, я стільки років полювала дияволів, що тепер чую, як летить метелик за кілометр від мене. І коли би я була впевнена, що цей шахрай не родина Ґейлу, він був би вже без голови. А з дідусем-поганусем все ж треба спочатку запитати Ґейла.
— Він не поганусь! — знову обурився Ґейл. — Це мій друг і вчитель, наймогутніший і наймудріший!
— Який тебе зрадив, — придрукувала Лей'зель. — Друг прийшов би не загибель твою вимагати, а порадити, як такий доли уникнути.
— І якщо для того треба звернути шию Містрі, — додав Тав, — друг не буде вагатися.
— Це дуже вірно, солдате, — посміхнулась задоволено Карлах.
— Так, — відрізала Лей'зель. — Справжня богиня повинна відрізняти корисних адептів від посередностей і цінувати їх. А для вибухів тем більш є забагато деякої швалі наче гоблінів. Якщо здихають за Абсолют, здохнуть і проти неї.
— Я тебе відразу сказала, Ґейле, — додала Карлах, — це не богиня, а гівно. Як бачиш, не я одна це розумію.
До досади Ґейлу, ніхто не збирався милуватися його самопожертвою. Тільки лаяли дурнем і вимагали послати Містру у такі місця, про які Ґейл не чув навіть у шинках на Караванному майдану у Глибоководді. Вілл і Тінесерда теж свої, не менш злосливі поради, додавали.
Тільки Астаріон, як не дивно, слухав розмову мовчки, навіть не став, як завжди, глузувати звичку Тава лізти до чужих справ.
А Тав лише дивився кудись у свої думки, ледве помітно їм посміхався.
"Коли я стану Абсолют, ця Містра сама вибухне. А після я її воскрешу, і вона вибухне ще раз. Ніхто не сміє чіпати тих, хто належить мені".
— Мій пундику, — прошепотів йому на вушко Астаріон. — Я вмию чути думки господаря краще інших. І твої так збуджують… Ти покажеш мені свою владу сьогодні вночі?
Серце Астаріона затремтіло. Тав міг і відмовити. Єдиний у світі, хто міг. Тав доси був не під коханьскими чарами Астаріона, та ще завжди мав багато тих, хто бажав зігріти йому ліжко заради дійсно солодких пестощів — Тав виявився найдуже гарним коханцем. І дивним чином це усе зачаровувало самого Астріона. А якщо ще додати мети Тава… Це все більш ставало пасткою для ельфа-вампіра.
Але здаватися Астаріон не планував. Ще невідомо, хто переможе!
І він ніжно, непомітне для інших поцілував вушко Тава. І замір, чекаючи на відповідь.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/60094774
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Дрібненькі оповіданнячкі-фанфікі по Baldur's Gate 3, написані по ходу першого проходження для заспокоєння власних емоцій і для мовної практики. І так, я граю українською.
Помилки перевіряв безкоштовний ШІ для школярів.
Джен, філософія, політика, трохи коханських стосунок без еротики.
Гру ще не пройшла, тому буде прода.
Прихильникам Вілла не читати! Тав не янгол! Слеш є. Решта на ваш ризик.

— 1 —
— Кім би не була ця Абсолют, а у першу чергу вона скінченна дурепа, — Тав смажив на багатті нанизані на тонку гілочку шматочки м'яса та помідора. Вони зробили короткий відпочинок недалеко від дороги.
— Чому? — здивувався Ґейл.
Абсолют його лякала. Але й одночасно манила величезною магією.
Лей'зель пирхнула зневажливо:
— Із мізкожерами зв'язалась. Невже ж сам не розумієш?
Тав заперечливо хитнув головою:
— Ні. Це не причина, а слідство. Вона дурепа, і тому для неї немає інших союзників, крім мізкожерів і гоблінів. А дурепа вона тому, що бажає всіх скрізь перетворить на покірних ляльок без власної воли. Це означає, що вона змушена буде робити сама всі справи, від державних угод до очищення вигрібних ям у містах. Розумний керівник делегує справи тлумачним підлеглим і дає їм повну волю вирішувати усе за ситуацією. "Піди до того місця, дій за умовами та принеси мені приз". Діло правителя показати напрям, але не бігати у справах. І стежити, як змінюється шлях до мети через зміну обставин. Світ постійно змінюється, тому потрібен керівник, щоб коригувати маршрути. А дурепа Абсолют діє так, ніби світ статичний. Чи намагається зробити його таким, а це неможливо.
Ґейл дивився на Тава здивовано, а Лей'зель кивнула.
— Так. Влаакіт дає наказ, але як його виконати, гіти вирішують сами. Тому чим швидше ми очистимося від пуголовка, тим краще. Хтозна, коли ця гидота прокинеться та перетворить нас на мізкожерів і рабів Абсолют. Нам пощастило, що наші пуголовки сплять, але це не назавжди.
Астаріон мовчав. Привертати на себе увагу зараз безглуздо. Він минулою ніччю змушений був проказав себе як вампіра, і зараз залишається у гурту тільки через заступництво Тава, якого переконав у свої корисності. Але якщо гурт наполягатиме, Тав Астаріона виженіть, а це смерть. Астаріон не зможе ховатися від колишнього господаря-викрадача на самоті — вкрав один раз, вкраде й другий. І тоді будь-яка смерть буде краще покарання, яке зробить для нього Казадор. А дати йому відсіч Астаріон не має сили, і хтозна, чи отримає її колись. Втекти другий раз немає чого навіть мріяти, тому що перший вдався тільки через щасливий випадок. Другий раз доля не буде настільки щедрою. Та й гроші заробляти Астаріон, як уроджений шляхтич, теж не дуже придатний, але жити з жебраками по безкоштовним нічліжкам, збирати одяг у ящиках для пожертвувань біля храмів не хотілося.
Тому треба підкорити цей не найкращий, але вельми корисний гурт, у якому Астаріон раптово опинився.
Але щоб маніпулювати усім гуртом, а не тільки Тавом, потрібен час.
І оскільки Тав тут вирішувач, треба підкорити у першу чергу його. Секс — засіб безвідмовний, у цей справі нікого краще Астаріона нема. Тав вже погодився отримати з Астаріону компенсацію за укус сексом. І після прийдешньої ночі він буде ніби віск у пальцях Астаріона, бажаючи від нього все нових і нових пестощів.
Можливо.
Було щось дивне у Тави. Якась інаковість, це робило його іншим, ніж усі, кого Астаріон колись знав.
І це збуджувало. У якийсь повіки секс для користи буде ще й приємним. У ті роки, коли Астаріон домагався посади магістрата, з впливовими коханцями та коханками було набагато гірше. Коли б не розваги по борделях, було б зовсім нестерпно.
А Тав… У той час Астаріон звабив би його просто для свого задоволення — навіть коли вже став магістратом, і йому самому почали намагатися платити не тільки золотом, але й сексом.
— Із цього слід, — казав тим часом Тав, — що сама Абсолют давно перетворилася на іграшку в руках придворних. Але вони теж таки ж дурні, інакше не намагались би обрати той же шлях. Хіба що в них буде ставка на свій гурт із тих, хто не має пуголовка. Зграя пастухів і безмозкі вівці. Теж не працює, тому що для солодкого життя керівникам треба ще мати тих, хто буде вовну мити, прясти та продавати одяг. І те, хто його купить. Справа Абсолют приречена на поразку так саме, як і її ляльковик. Але це буде не завтра. І ми маємо багато ризику до цього не дожити. І водночас маємо шанс отримати величезні можливості та зробити для себе життя набагато краще того, що було. Якщо будемо діяти обережно та розважливо.
— Не може бути нічого корисного від мізкожера! — взвилася Лей'зель. — Це гидота! Від усього цього треба позбавитися!
— Я нічого не казав про мізкожерив чи Абсолют. Я кажу тільки про силу, яку ці недоумки мають і невміло користують. Сила сама по себе не зла й не добра. Вона навіть не має власний воли. Це просто річ, яку бере будь-який, хто може. Подумай, якою корисною та важливою ти будеш для твоєї королеві, як вона тебе нагородить і підвищить, коли ти отримаєш силу більш ніж зараз. Не відповідай відразу, тільки подумай неспішно.
Лей'зель надулася на нього, ніби дитина, яку татко умовляє з'їсти корисну вівсянку.
— Tsk'va. Ненавиджу, коли ти маєш рацію!
Астаріон заціпенів. Тав хоче стати Абсолют?! Це… А чому ні? Він вже зробив багато такого, що не несила іншим. Принаймні, Астаріон отримає на цьому шляху чимало користі, можливо навіть засіб знищити Казадора з усією його мерзенною зграєю. І встигне втекти, якщо у Тава щось піде небажаним чином.
Тому треба переконати його у своїй вірності. І розпалити у ньому нестерпну спрагу до тіла Астаріона.
У обох справах Астаріон був майстром ще задовго до перетворення на вампіра. Але й Тав виявився набагато складнище високопосадних балдурців і навіть Казадора, його колишнього (добре, ще не зовсім колишнього) викрадача та господаря.
І все ж Астаріон не хотив здаватися.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/60094774
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Якщо вампір чогось хоче... Або когось.
(Фанфік по Baldur's Gate 3. Усі права належать правовласникам. Слеш, Тав/Астаріон, рейтинг PG-13)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/58573714

Для Аякса-Еміля, найкращої зірочки у світі, який надихнув мене вивчити солов'їну мову.

Астаріон мав дуже багато коханців і коханок, але ніколи не пам'ятав їхніх імен і облич. Це були тільки інструменти для вмагмування голоду харчового та сексуального. Для обидвох випадків апетит Астаріона був дуже міцним.
Звісно, наволочний загарбник і господар не дозволяв розважатися так, як Астаріону бажалося, але й він не був таким дурнем, яким його описував Астаріон — це зрозумів би кожен, хто має здатність думати: занадто вже гарно білявий кровопивця виглядав. Звісно, Казадор — садюга та маніяк, але вмів використовувати свої речі так, щоб і задоволення отримати, і не зіпсувати. Тому шрами від ігор Казадора залишись справжні, але жерти деяку пакість Астаріону доводилось дуже рідко, і завжди через свій занадто довгий і швидкий язик. Адже відомо, що не показуй норову, доки не знайшов спосіб покласти свого господаря до труни. А там вже плюй чи сери на його могилу, скільки забажається.
Однак усе закінчилось через іншого загарбника та господаря. Теж наволоч, але тупий. Астаріон легко від нього втік, та ще з непоганим трофеєм. Зараз можна не тільки сховатися від пошуків Казадора та нишком пристроїти його до труни, але й ще помститися цьому покидьку за його болючі ігри. А як додати, що тепер молодість, краса та чарівність будуть з Астаріоном набагато довше, ніж судилося ельфу, то життя безперечно вдалось.
І коли вбити Казадора, то з новою здатністю можна отримати з нього спадок. А це дуже смачний шмат.
Усе інше, типу перетворення через нову здатність на потвору, як-небудь само собою налагодиться на користь Астаріона. Так завжди було з усіма його халепами.
Але з Астаріоном трапився Тав. Спочатку він здався йому йолопом, якого легко обдурити і яким легко користуватися. Тільки усе обернулося на інший бік. Тав легко дав Астаріон свою кров, ще легше погодився на секс… І на цьому втратив до Астаріона будь-який інтерес. Тав залишив корисного супутника у гурті, був не проти допомогти йому з помстою, тому що бачив у ній свій профіт, і… І нічого більш. Ще ніхто не кидав Астаріона. Завжди він залишав після себе купу розбитих сердець. Ні, Тав не був жорстоким. Навпаки. Ніч, що провів з ним Астаріон, подарувала таку насолоду, яку цей розпусник ще не знав. Але більш нічого Астаріон не отримав. Тав відразу бачив усі його хитрощі, і, хоча схвалював амбіції Астаріона, ніколи не дозволив користуватися собою.
І це прив'язало ельфа-вампіра до Тава міцнише, ніж усі закляття Казадора чи магія мізкожерів. Але Тав не хотiв тримати при собі здобич. Астаріон був вільний піти у будь-яку мить. Тільки навіщо? Усе стало порожнім без того, кому серцеїд не потрібен.
Доля — люта месниця. Покарання за глузування над тими, хто необережно закохався в Астаріона, виявилося болючим.
Але… Надія все ж є. Хай Тав не бажав більш кохатися з Астаріоном, він і з іншими не мав пристрасті більш одного разу. А тому був вільним. І Астаріон ще має шанс захопить володаря свого серця навічно.
***
— Мій володарю, — Астаріон опустився на коліна біля Тава. Колись Астаріон думав, що вже ні для кого це не зробить. Ніколи.
Але… Тав підкорив його пестощами та ласкавістю більш, ніж Казадор болем та магією чи мізкожер гіпнозом.
А можливо, Казадор і мізкожер щось зламали у вільному характері Астаріона, і він більш не може жити без господаря. Коли так, то краще Тава не буде нікого.
— Кажи, що ти бажаєш, мій чарівний господарю? — Астаріон веде долонею по стегну Тава. Вони обидва у затишному, закритому кута табора, тому інші члени гурту їм не завадять. — Я виконаю все. Навіть коли ти схочеш зробити мене боляче.
Тав дивиться на нього з легким здивуванням, потім з незлим глузуванням.
— Ти хочеш цього для мене чи для себе?
Астаріон відчув, що червоніє, ніби незайманка на першому побаченні. Селуне та Шар! Він вже був впевнений, що нічого у житті не може його збентижити.
— Я хочу бути твоим, володарю, так глибоко та міцно, як це тільки можливо. Хочу твоїх пестищей. І навіть хочу болю, щоб чути, як безмежно ти володієш мною.
— Ти знаток збочень, — схвально посміхнувся Тав і ніжно попестив вушко Астаріона. І відразу міцно, владно, до болю стиснув загривок Астаріона, направивши до свого паху.
Астаріон застогнав від голодного збудження, потягнувся до ласощі…
…і прокинувся.
Прокляття!
Він на самоті у своєму наметі, Тав спить у себе, та нікого не бажає знайти у своєму ліжку.
Але!
Він там самотний.
А тому…
Астаріон нечутною тінню ковзнув до намета Таву.
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A long time in a galaxy far, far away, everything was completely different from what was written in the history textbooks at the demand of the rulers and their rivals.
The teenager received abilities one didn't want. A happy life is destroyed, and survival and freedom can become empty words. But if the world wants to turn you into a toy, you can make it play your own game with you.
***
Self-consolation scribbles. I found a great Star Wars game but couldn't even get past the prologue because the controls were so complicated. This fanfic is NOT like that game. And it is AU for SW. I specifically try not to show who the character is, a boy or a girl, what their appearance is, so that readers can choose all this themselves, like in a video game.


— 5 —

"Do quchu-yinying!" Tina demanded. "Quickly, if you want to live!"
"Do what?" I didn't understand.
She made some signs in the air. I repeated them, but nothing happened.
"Put the Force in it, you idiot!" Tina growled. "Faster or you're finished!"
I still didn't understand anything, but I did as she said. She didn't mean me any harm, unless the Force was lying. And I was too confused and scared to decide for myself.
I felt a pleasantly cool wave of Force, and that was it. Tina smiled faintly.
"All the data from all the tracking devices in the library for the last minute has been erased. The cameras and microphones will be working again shortly."
A new wave of Force, or rather a shadow of the wave, told me that surveillance had been activated. A moment later, security ran into the library.
"It was boys," Tina said. "They threw a firecracker and ran off. I didn't see their faces. And I'm not hurt. And you?" She looked at me.
"I'm fine. And I didn't have time to see them either too."
I didn't feel the Force in Tina, but she hid the consequences of its use very confidently and skilfully.
The guards left. And Tina said:
"Never try to talk to me. Never at all. I don't communicate with Force-wankers."
She, barely holding back a painful groan, rose on her crutches and hobbled towards the exit. I still didn't understand anything, but I wasn't surprised. This is my usual fate: as soon as something good starts, some absurd accident ruins it.
I'm back on my project. There's still some time left before the end of this lesson, and I need to finish collecting the material.
And then... I'll write everything as it is. If I get kicked out of the Academy, I'll sit in a municipal school until the end of the school year. They're required to accept students at any time. And I'll start fourth grade at some good online school. Anyway, real life rejects me wherever I go. Things are going much better for me on the net.
And I wrote everything I thought. And about the fact that the Resistance fought with meat, that is, didn't consider the losses in manpower, too. The Empire, in my opinion, took care of people, despite the fact that its stormtroopers were only good for killing unarmed peasants. In short, a plague on both your houses, as Major Tucker said about the Order and the Guard, about the Galactic Republic and the Empire. (I know about Shakespeare; I'm not a savage or an ignoramus.)
Tucker was well versed in the subject. He had been raised as a Sith since birth, and at sixteen he had run away to the Jedi. Tucker had been there for three years, and when he had finally become convinced that the Light Ones were no different from the Dark Ones, he had fled to the nearest Foreign Legion on a well-developed planet.
Tucker had served Kadvir for two years when the Tivan Border War began. Tucker had shown great valour, and the government had given him ahead of schedule citizenship, awarded him the Order of the Purple Rose, and sent him to the Army College. Tucker said he had always known that Major was the highest rank he was fit for. But Tucker had earned it quickly. He said that Kadvir's army was fair.
Tucker had planned to happily remain a major until age retirement, but a serious wound forced him into disability retirement. His military base gave him recommendations for several schools and security companies to keep him from becoming depressed and feeling useless and alone. He chose the Irene Weiss School because it was near the house Tucker had bought shortly before his wound.
...Strangely enough, my project was a success. There was an interesting discussion with my classmates; I even formed my own faction in the game of the Great Council of Worlds, which was organised by the teacher. She made some purely technical corrections to my project without affecting its meaning and sent it to the competition.
I didn't mind. I needed the scores for the university.
It was much worse with the Force. It didn't manifest itself in any way; none of the Jedi or Sith training Major Tucker recommended helped to find it. But I understood that hoping for liberation from the Force was stupid. It will crawl out when it is least needed.
The project took an unexpected turn. Sliff Tfail, a Serpenian guy from our strategy study group, brought me a high school girl, the captain of the football team, to help her develop a programme to kick ass for the Genuill Kid College team.
I was a little surprised by Sliffe's choice; football is not the most convenient sport for Serpenians; they, with their four arms and ability to stand on the end of a long tail, they are basketball stars, but if the football team sees his usefulness as a player, then to hell with stereotypes.
I knew nothing about football and had not yet caught the school rivalry bug, but the task itself intrigued me. I began to study the rules and the results of the games. I also got Sliffe involved; he is a footballer and should be able to be an analyst.
He resisted a little, saying that he could only kick the ball around but not plan, but he obeyed the captain, who found my idea useful.
"Sliff can talk anyone into anything, that's why I'm here," the captain said. "He must be my successor. I'm in my penultimate year at this school, and I'll have time to prepare him. Sliff can manage people; he will be able to keep the team united and motivated."
I modelled match variants; the captain liked my ideas; she even invited me to train and watch famous professional matches. And with Sliff, we started talking about movies and books and doing homework together. (Boarding school and homework, yes). We even started building a common farm in a sandbox video game.
Of course, a story this good couldn't help but end in complete failure. The Force. That scoundrel showed up exactly when Sliff and I had escaped the noise of the classrooms for independent work and were doing our homework in the garden. I was writing essays for both of us in Ur-Kittât, the ceremonial dialect of the Sithish, and Sliff was solving his and my math tasks.
As Kadvir is a neutral state, ordinary citizens do business with both the Republic and the Empire. Sithish, with all its three dialects, and Republic Basic Standard are the most useful for finding good jobs. They are the most commonly taught in schools. And yes: Republican Basic Standard is the language of the Big Republic, Republicish, but not the pan-galactic language, no matter what the Republic imagines of itself as the centre of the universe.
There are many places in the galaxy that are highly developed economically, legally, and scientifically where people have no idea of the Republicish and value Bocce and Sithish more (it is not only spoken in the Empire and its satellites).
Kadvirish is also quite popular.
But enough about linguistics. There are more important problems. I, cursing the ban on the use of gadgets and Galaxnet during homework time and the power of the jammers that would not allow me to turn on the phone, dug into the damn paper dictionary and grammar reference, trying to figure out where I had screwed up, trying to express Sliffe's idea about the future of sport on Ur-Kittât. The phrase sounded awkward, and this language is quite musical; everything should sound smooth; the runes should also form a harmonious ribbon, similar to lace.
I began to hum the phrase, hoping to find the error that way. But my ears are hanging on a tree in music; even Sliff, who was not at all brilliant in Sithish, fell off the bench onto the grass laughing.
"The tail of the Great Iffu! Eirian, did you hear what you said?!"
I looked at him sombrely. Sithish is a tonal language, and the same word, pronounced in different tones, has different meanings: "tuoshvi" in a rising tone means "game"; if the tone is falling, it is "river"; falling-rising means "breakfast"; rising-falling... There are eight tones in total in all, and a harmless phrase can easily turn into an obscene curse.
At my previous school, my Mum consoled me by saying that the CEO only reads the most important correspondence and writes replies, and my Dad said that when I start getting serious about business, I will hire the most beautiful Sith of any race as a translator. But at this school, much more attention was paid to rhetoric, and I immediately slid from "good" to "satisfactory" and even to "insufficient". I was lucky that I didn't get "failure".
I sighed, added a transcription and tones in Common Sith to the phrase, and tried to read it, conducting myself with my hand. It turned out, judging by Sliffe's amusement, even worse than before: a person devoid of musicality sincerely believes that he sings correctly, but those around him say that he has not hit a single note. I did not sing, but the principle is similar.
"Unbelievable! You're not even conducting in time!" laughed Sliff.
Okay, to hell with Sliff's hilarity, but I found the error. I rewrote the phrase, added the transcription, and started reading, again helping myself with hand movements.
Out of nowhere came a river of packets of ready-to-eat breakfast foods; the tip is "Just Add Water". Each one, in addition to the company name and logo, had the words "Receive a ticket to the game of the season!". Sliff shouted in horror and ran away.
And I was stunned with amazement, seeing the Force for the first time. Streams of black, white, and grey plasma intertwined, flowed into each other, and broke up into bright big sparks of all those colours that monochrome actually consists of. And again gathered into three streams of plasma.
The Force disappeared as suddenly as it had appeared. And I woke up from my stupor. A pile of drifter food, a frightened friend who doesn't want to know me, and an upcoming grand scandal in the media: "The heir of Gwalchtan-TNC is a Forsian without self-control, dangerous to society." So what next? A boarding shelter for freaks, life with parents on a wild planet, or being forced to choose between the Order and the Guard?
The media will latch onto parents simply because they are a fat target. The proletarians and office plankton love it when the media gnaws at the rich and do not think that a scandal that caused a fall in shares will leave them without work: business partners will rush to escape from the noise so as not to get caught in the crossfire themselves, banks will not give loans, and similar events. The lumpen will add fire, since yelling at protests for free booze is their favourite pastime.
I headed for the school building. I was hoping the "Put on a cheeky face and accuse everyone of slander" option would work. I don't know anything; I'm a victim; I was lying unconscious, and that's all!
To my surprise, all the students had gathered in the hall on the second floor, where the self-study classes were, and were shouting at the top of their lungs and discussing the appearance of Forcian at the Academy.
Sliff ran up to me.
"Hooray, you're alive! I saw you washed away by the Force. I called for help. They didn't believe me!"
"I wasn't washed away. I fell behind the bench and passed out."
Sliff pulled me to the nurse, telling me that he saw a very tall, even by adult standards, human or reptiloid in a uniform jacket and kepi, who staged a provocation with the Force.
"But why does Forcean need so much drifter food?" Sliff wondered. "If he wants to go to the match, he can charm the stadium security and sit in the VIP box. No need to win a prize for an economy class seat. A kepi and a jacket in the summer—he's just arrived from the Frontier Belt. When my family moved here, we were cold even in the summer the first year."
I followed him listlessly, trying to figure out what was going on. "Tall"—Sliff was lying on the grass when I was standing, so his shocked brain could remember me like that. Jacket and kepi—I shiver the whole time. Everyone except the new settlers from the Belt, Tina, stoned on sedatives, and me, the eternally sick one, wears short-sleeved uniform shirts.
But otherwise... Why doesn't Sliff remember that I was the author of the witchcraft? Someone has done some serious work on his memories. But who? It certainly wasn't me, and it certainly wasn't the Force itself. There's another Forcean here. And for some reason, they have rescued me.
But what do they want in return?
https://archiveofourown.org/works/57638197
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14376014/1/My-Own-Game
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A long time in a galaxy far, far away, everything was completely different from what was written in the history textbooks at the demand of the rulers and their rivals.
The teenager received abilities one didn't want. A happy life is destroyed, and survival and freedom can become empty words. But if the world wants to turn you into a toy, you can make it play your own game with you.
***
Note: Self-consolation scribbles. I found a great Star Wars game but couldn't even get past the prologue because the controls were so complicated. This fanfic is NOT like that game. And it is AU for SW. I specifically try not to show who the character is, a boy or a girl, what their appearance is, so that readers can choose all this themselves, like in a video game.

— 4 —

Emil, thanks for the preliminary reading.

I still transferred to the Youth Military Academy. Dad didn't show it, but I knew he was very happy because he and all his ancestors had studied at this school, starting from the moment the family became wealthy.
In essence, the Academy was a school for heirs, the only military elements in it being a few daily ceremonies and a cadet uniform—a rudiment of the years when Kadvir was populated by mercenary gangs. And training the children of a leader of grouping in a military school guaranteed the loyalty of the peasants and artisans who had accepted the guardianship of one of the gangs. Civilians, driven from their homes by a severe economic crisis, could not survive on their own on a barely developed planet, among dangerous predators and unorganised bandit groups. And organised teams needed a source of food and clothing independent of external supplies. Equal cooperation didn't happen immediately, but competition between the groups forced the bandits to respect peaceful people.
There are still two months left before the long autumn holidays, and I will have time to finish the difference in subjects. It is insignificant between the two schools.
Twenty-eight days have passed since the day the tattoo created problems for the first time. And eleven days since that skirmish in the school yard. The Force has not shown itself in any way since the skirmish. I was beginning to hope that it had disappeared completely.
Now I was sitting in the library of the Youth Military Academy and collecting materials on the galaxnet for a research project. Next to me sat a fair-haired and blue-eyed girl with a splint on her leg. She had fifth-year stripes, which meant she was fifteen. She looked quite grown up. But she poked at the computer sensor like a little child.
I glanced at her screen. Ballistics calculations. But no one does them manually!
Oh, judging by the look on the girl's face, I said that out loud.
"No one," she said, "except for the combat AI testers. And if I don't pass the exams to join this special group, I'll have to go home."
Oh... I see. She's here on a grant, and life at home is hell.
"Don't look at me like that," said the girl. "My Mum is very good. She's ready to jump out of her skin and sell her bones, if only I had what she doesn't have. The problem is that I want a completely different kind of happiness for myself. She needs time to be alone, to calm down and understand that I'm no longer the sweet doll in a lace dress that I was ten years ago, and that the army…"
She looked at her splinted leg and sobbed. The girl didn't look like a crybaby; it was clearly the strong painkillers and stress that had sapped her self-control.
"Limping is no obstacle for the army," I said quickly. "You can be a pilot without any legs at all."
"I was only accepted here because of football. So that I could bring prizes for the Academy. But..." she started crying after all.
I was frantically trying to come up with a way out. There was no use in sympathy; here we had to solve the problem. It was not easy to get into the Army College; the municipal school would not be enough. All applicants from ordinary families studied on grants in good private schools. This girl wasn't doing well in math and physics; all the places in eSports were taken, otherwise, she would have started with it…
"A charity fund!" I realized. "You can get a scholarship through some creative project. What troops did you want to serve in?"
"Epsilon Intelligence."
For flights on a reconnaissance module in Epsilon-space, the leg doesn't matter; everything is controlled manually. Physics and chemistry are enough in the volume of a general education course of a municipal school; mathematics is even less needed; the main thing is agility, quickness of thought, and... midi-chlorians. And the latter is needed precisely in microdoses. The only field of activity where the Force makes sense. And then only if it is not excessive.
"There you need to colour the midi-chlorians with the necessary reagents and arrange them in the correct order," I recalled the little I knew about Epsilon-cosmos. "Fractal graphics as a method of navigation and control…"
"What are you talking about? There is very strong math!" The girl was indignant. "Epsilon-Navigator is not a job for everyone."
"Everyone loves stickers with routes through Epsilon-cosmos..." I continued out loud so that stupid prejudices would not distract me from my thoughts. "Managing dynamic space through midi-chlorians, which are correctly located... Colouring is a way to understand where and how many of them are there; the colour is determined by the number... And what if you draw navigation maps using art AI? Like animation for video games."
"I'm terrible at drawing," the girl shook her head.
"And you don't need to do it. There are plenty of AIs that make pictures in different styles based on scribbles on a tablet. Even a primary school student can draw their room so that it can't be confused with a forest meadow and vice versa. And AI will create a classic oil painting or an impressionist creation out of it."
"Flight charts aren't made like that," the girl snapped.
I glanced at the name tag on her uniform jacket.
"Tina Alverist, all these over-aged blockheads are constantly telling us that we don't understand anything about serious things because we're kids. So take advantage of this! A charity will be afraid to deny a scholarship to a child who is so imaginative that he made a navigation route from the capital to the Big Port using art-AI templates and a set of correction commands. Especially if you write that a real manager does not deal with routine tasks themselves; their job is to wisely distribute them between live subordinates and droids. And it doesn't matter how much your imagination works! The main thing is that you pay for the sixth, final year of middle school. And you'll come up with something for high school. A year is a long time."
“I have no idea how to use art-AI,” Tina muttered. "And this subject doesn't fit with the ones I've chosen at all. There could be problems."
"Go to a psychologist and tell him you want to take training in running art-AI as a form of art therapy. It distracts from trauma, calms you down, and all that. And make your own project and apply to the Shaidi Foundation. It'll be the easiest to get a scholarship there. I know this because my family sponsors several foundations."
Tina looked at me thoughtfully.
"It's worth a try, at least." And she smiled: "Where did you come from here, so smart? This is the first time I've seen a fry so rocked out about business. Even if their families run corporations."
"I'm new. I transferred recently."
"Straight to some special group, probably?"
I told her about the essay. And added:
"But I'm not sure that's the issue. My parents donated well to the grant fund of my former school."
Tina laughed.
"You'll definitely be able to run the family company well."
"Why are you here and not in the hospital?" I asked. "It's hard for you to sit, I can tell. And it hurts to move even in the air chair."
"Lying there and thinking that I'll never be able to even run out for ice cream again, let alone play football, hurts a lot more. And the doctor's words that there will be no scars, so I can wear a miniskirt as soon as the splint is removed, and in a couple of years I will be able to dance moderately on a date, do not help me at all. Crutches and ballistic tasks are better. That way, I don't feel like a discarded candy wrapper."
"No," I said. "You're not a wrapper. You're an Intuist-Navigator. Listening to space, perfecting your midi-chlorians sense. If it works for idiots with a lightsaber who can't tell their head from their ass without a tonne of midi-chlorians, an officer of Epsilon Intelligence will do all the better."
Tina laughed again.
"That's a strange comparison. But I like it!"
She glanced at my screen.
"Oh, so you're studying the Order and the Guard. It's clear why you say that.
"Not exactly," I said. "I just want to form my own opinion. One of the teachers at my old school says that Anakin Skywalker was a nobody, just a brainless, spineless bag with midi-chlorians. But I don't think so. Obi-Wan Kenobi tried very hard to deprive him of his personality and freedom of thought; he slowed down his development, and still Anakin tried to be himself, and he did the Jedi job better than Kenobi. It's a pity Anakin didn't leave the Order. He could have become a cool racer to have adrenaline and glory, and with the prize money, open a chain of repair shops to have a guarantee of a comfortable life even for his great-grandchildren. No repairman has ever sat without a bun with a thick layer of butter."
"That's why I don't like Padmé!" said Tina. "She should have suggested all this to Anakin. What's the point of a wife if she doesn't give her husband smart advice?"
A wife needs a good IQ to do that. And I have serious reasons to doubt that Padmé had it. But I can't tell everyone about my conclusions. And I spoke carefully:
"She didn't see that Kenobi was going crazy with envy of Anakin's talents. And the fact that he had a mother. Anakin was separated from her, and he began to enter the age when friends and adventures were more interesting to boys than their parents, but Anakin's life was warmed by memories of the person who blew on his skinned knees, told him fairy tales, and chased the bogeyman from under his bed when Anakin had bad dreams. Anakin knew what family was, and Kenobi had been raised as a tool. Qui-Gon Jinn understood that and tried to be a father to both of them, not a teacher. But Obi-Wan… It annoyed him. However, Anakin was comfortable. I think Qui-Gon would have helped him meet his mother, and would have found a way to save her. If Qui-Gon hadn't died, Anakin's talent would have been able to blossom to the fullest, and his character would have been revealed. But the Jedi Order broke the guy before Palpatine even got to him."
"It's possible," Tina said slowly. And she added, "I think Qui-Gon would have advised Anakin to leave the Order if the self-centred Padmé didn't have the brains to do it. She saw only herself, her ideas and ambitions."
I didn't answer. I didn't want to talk about Padmé. My grandmother and grandfather, who were my Mum's parents, told me a lot about how miners lived on the moons of Naboo. Escaping from there was the greatest success in their lives. And during Padmé's reign and senatorship, everything was much worse. It was not for nothing that miners of that time collected copper coins for a bounty hunter—not at all for nothing. Although the most famous of those who ordered Padmé's death was Nute Gunray, there were still a huge number of people who wanted to see her in a coffin.
I glanced at Tina and thought for a moment. She knows history, she understands business, and her head doesn't seem to be cluttered with prejudices. And I asked the question I couldn't find an answer to:
"Do you think the midi-chlorians really raped Shmi Skywalker? Then why didn't she have an abortion?"
Tina wasn't surprised or indignant, and I continued quickly, until Tina got tired of chatting about the distant past:
"Shmi doesn't look like a religious fanatic or a wacky pro-lifer. And she's not one of those who lose their personality so much that they don't care about themselves or their children, and reproduce even in the most horrible and dead-end conditions, just because that's the way it turned out."
Tina was silent and looked at me with interest. I said:
"There are no gynaecological clinics for female slaves, but all the media write that women on orthodox planets solve this problem themselves. And it doesn't always happen with a risk to their lives. A piece of bent wire is a lot of planets more backward than Tatooine. And even more so, women quickly solve this problem if they get pregnant while drunk, and the lady herself doesn't remember when and with whom it happened. Slaves have a hard life, especially women, and drowning their sorrows in alcohol and drugs is almost inevitable. But no one with even a grain of common sense would leave a foetus conceived in such a state. And even more so, no normal person would foredoom a child to slavery..."
Tina listened attentively and didn't argue. Encouraged, I finished my thought:
"I don't understand! And if midi-chlorians can rape women, then why was Shmi the only victim? Even if they like only tall, brown-haired Scandinavian-type human women, there are many such ones. There must be more victims."
"Don't talk nonsense," Tina chuckled. "There was no father. I carried her, I gave birth, I raised her, I can't explain what happened." That's what my Mum says about me. And I highly doubt she ever read the details of Shmi's biography to know her words. It's simpler. My father was a small clerk at Corporate Alliance. A run-of-the-mill office plankton, but handsome. He convinced my Mum to leave the accidental pregnancy. Contraception sometimes fails, you know... He promised to marry, but before this, he must persuade his grandfather not to disinherit him. But as soon as my mother's belly started to stick out more than her bust, my father's love turned into a zilch. And he disappeared somewhere in the starry distance so that no lawsuit for alimony could find him. With Shmi, it's even simpler: the owner or his son spoke of love, promised to make her free, wanted a child… But as soon as it started to approach responsibility, that is, to childbirth, he sold Shmi far away. In such cases, a woman either gives the child up for adoption immediately after childbirth or decides to raise it herself and tells everyone that there was never a father. And what did the Jedi hear in Shmi's words, and even more so how historians distorted these words... Dude, life is not as romantic as TV series and legendary biographies try to convince us."
"Damn," I was shocked by the obviousness of the solution. "In real life, everything really is much simpler."
"And dirtier," added Tina.
"That's true," I agreed. And Tina said:
"I just hope Shmi had secret love affairs with Cliegg Lars before he bought her. It's a terrible thing to be forced into marriage with a trash who needs an heir but who has been rejected by all the local maidens and widows."
"Cliegg already had a son when he married Shmi," I said, looking at the biography. "And it looks like she married the man she was in love with before the wedding. And by Tatooine standards, Cliegg was well off and respected, not some lowlifer with an appendage who was looking for a cheap housekeeper, nanny, and bedding. Cliegg was a decent option for many widows and maidens on Tatooine."
"I hope so," Tina said thoughtfully. She glanced at me, bit her lip a little, and decided:
"You don't want to work with me on the art navigation project? I understand that you need it like you need garbage, but you're pretty good at it. After all, cool business people often pilot their modules."
"I get seasick even in the lift," I chuckled. "Why do you think I'm here and not in gym class? But..." I looked at Tina. "Can you cook simple dishes? Street food, a product range of an economy-class cafe without a drone-cook."
"Of course. But why do you need it?"
"I want a profession in case of vicissitudes of fate. And the cook at the Academy is trying to teach me something that can't be sold in difficult times."
Tina shook her head.
"You're not like the others. But I don't meddle in other people's affairs. I agree to barter."
I smiled and nodded. The Academy is a boarding school, and I will only be home on weekends now. Mum will cook with me there if she hasn't forgotten how to do it yet. But the main studies will be here.
And I need to ask Tina about other skills of everyday life, practice. It's clearly her first year at the Academy, and therefore she knows a new simple life—the one that Mum remembers is no longer relevant.
We sealed the deal with a handshake, and I returned to my project. Whatever you say, I had to write something coherent about the operation to bring back Luke Skywalker. To me, that was utter nonsense: the Resistance was blowing up Death Stars just fine without that piece of old junk. Luke himself was a very cool guy and a clever person, until he got into Jedi ravings up to his ears and became a loser because of it. And the fact that Kylo Ren was an even bigger loser doesn't change the truth. And it is noteworthy that Leia, having considerable Force and huge ambitions, didn't even think about getting into Jedi. Senator, general, but not a Jedi. A really smart person doesn't choose stupidity. It's a pity I can't write all this…
I felt sad about the brainlessness of the world, and the Force, as if wanting to console me, flew to the ceiling, curled up into a ball there, and exploded into fireworks.
All I could do was curse with words that are strictly forbidden in the Academy.
I'm screwed.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/57638197
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14376014/1/My-Own-Game
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My Star Wars fanfic was banned on FanFiction. I wrote to the admins, but there are many other sites, so if the work is not returned, it is not a disaster. Although the situation itself is funny. The fanfic is harmless and porn-free.

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A long time in a galaxy far, far away, everything was completely different from what was written in the history textbooks at the demand of the rulers and their rivals.
The teenager received abilities one didn't want. A happy life is destroyed, and survival and freedom can become empty words. But if the world wants to turn you into a toy, you can make it play your own game with you.
***
Self-consolation scribbles. I found a great Star Wars game but couldn't even get past the prologue because the controls were so complicated. This fanfic is NOT like that game. And it is AU for SW. I specifically try not to show who the character is, a boy or a girl, what their appearance is, so that readers can choose all this themselves, like in a video game.

— 3 —

Emil, thanks for the preliminary reading.

When enemies fly around the schoolyard like volleyball, it's nice. But it raises unnecessary questions.
There was never much bullying in my school. And yet, there was always some of that nastiness. Of course, I was the most favourite victim. So I knew perfectly well where the surveillance cameras were located, which would immediately raise the alarm if their AI noticed something prohibited.
Chris, Thara and Mgono smashed one of the cameras with something long-range. I don't know how they got it past the security indicators. It was probably a simple homemade slingshot, like on the primitive planets. But it doesn't matter.
The real problem was the Force. After about half a minute of me trying to break free, an invisible wave came from somewhere and threw the assholes in different directions.
I was afraid they would break their bones—I hate this trio, but I hate harming people even more. Even if they barely fit the definition of "people." And the wave obediently reduced its intensity; these three idiots escaped with bruises.
When Chris, Thara and Mgono were pushing me around like a ball, everyone in the yard tried hard to pretend that nothing was happening. But as soon as the three of them started pretending to be birds, a general howl arose. The guards came running, the teacher on duty, and I, along with the three chumps, were taken to the principal.
"I didn't expect this from you, Mx. Gwalchtan!" he exclaimed.
"And did you expect it from these gentlemen?" I asked, nodding at the trio. "And did nothing to prevent vandalism and violence?"
The principal's eyes bulged out indignantly, and he launched into a speech about how it was not for me to judge the behaviour of adults.
"The mass media will be interested to know about victim-blaming," I interrupted him. "And about violence."
"Are you blackmailing me?" The principal instantly became furious. "You brought a weapon to school!"
The trio behind me were silent and even tried to breathe every other time. They were stupid, but they had been to the principal often enough to understand: if you were caught breaking the rules, you had to try to impersonate furniture, blend into the wall, then the punishment would be less severe.
"Did I bring a weapon through your security?" I said sarcastically. "The Parents' Council and the Trustees' Committee will also be delighted. By the way, what did this trio use to break the camera? Didn't they hurt themselves with these same weapons because of their clumsy hands?"
"You are suspended from classes for a week for insolence and arguing!"
This is serious. Being suspended greatly reduces your personal score for university admission. Even if you do well on the national exam, your personal score may not be enough to apply to a good university.
I tried to smile politely:
"And the mass media will find this a very interesting topic."
"The mass media will bring down the stock price of your father's company," the principal said through gritted teeth.
"My Mum is a trader now and a crisis manager in the past. She knows how to make stock rise out of a scandal. But this school has no specialists. And my parents will be very proud that I am defending my honour from unfounded accusations."
The principal hissed in anger—in the literal sense, he is a reptiloid, and some things are beyond his control, just as humans cannot control the reddening of their faces.
"You will study only remotely until the state exam," he decided. "To preserve your health. I will call the speeder and the escort droid now. And the three of you," he nodded at Chris, Thara, and Mgono, "go to the classroom. I will have a special talk with your parents."
I sat down in the visitors' chair, watching with some glee as the trio turned sour. They were too stupid to realise the danger the mass media was to their parents' business, and they were confident that they could get away with bullying because it was approved by their parents, but the magic phrase "stock quote" still pressed the panic button in their empty heads.
Chris, Thara and Mgono left. I traced a flower on the upholstery of the chair with my finger. Phones are forbidden at the school; they have to be handed in at the entrance, so waiting is boring. I hope the speeder and the free droid (both of which constantly carry out the principal's orders) will come quickly.
The secretary-droid's communicator on the principal's desk reported that Major Tucker urgently wanted to see him regarding the Mx. Gwalchtan case.
Interesting. Tucker is a retired Army officer who teaches military science to high school students. I only know him because of his beauty (he is tall, has big green eyes, brown wavy hair, antique features, and the same figure), the girls and some boys in our class often talk about him and look forward to when they grow up to prepare for the army—as if that would stop them from being schoolchildren and little pieces, and Tucker would become so stupid that he would forget about it.
Two years of conscript military service are mandatory for everyone in Kadvir; we have to protect our neutrality. But there are many different types of service, not just running around with a blaster. Dad served in a unit that repairs and maintains droids in government-run nursing homes for the disabled and elderly. His mother was ill, his father had died, and he had to manage businesses that employed many people. Daytime service in nursing homes allowed him to at least attend to the affairs of Gwalchtan-TNC in the evenings. And my Mum needed to save more money for her parents for a down payment to buy her own bakery and needed extra scores for the university to get a scholarship. So my mother chose combat service; she was a heavy fighter pilot on the border. She didn't miss the opportunity to improve her staff manager skills, attended various additional classes, and quickly became a crew commander. And at the university, immediately after entering, she received certification in three subjects and was able to spend this time learning additional skills. Well, with a good down payment, she easily took out a mortgage.
But that's not the point. How does a high school teacher know about a thirteen-year-old schoolkid, and why does an army person need someone who is doomed to receive the stamp "Unfit for all types of service" in their personal file?
"Mx. Klharr," Tucker began, barely greeting, "Mx. Gwalchtan's essay has attracted the interest of the Youth Military Academy. I must discuss the possibility of a transfer with them."
"What?!" I said at the same time as the principal.
"What kind of transfer can there be," asked the principal, "if physical training is not available for Mx. Gwalchtan?"
"Don't exaggerate, Mx. Klharr," Tucker chuckled. "This is a regular middle and high school. No one there forbids you to replace physical education with a library if your child has health problems. Except that the Youth Military Academy has a special uniform, military history, and strategy tasks. It was in the latter that Mx. Gwalchtan distinguished themselves. Their essay proved interesting to the Academy due to a very original analysis of the Battle of Vistlavia. And yes, it was I, as befits a Major in Kadvir's army, albeit retired, who presented the essay to the Educational Council at the Academy. Mx. Mary Davidson came to me to consult about the grade that Mx. Gwalchtan's work deserved."
Wow! I actually wrote such an essay for another project on logic—the Battle of Vistlavia was in history at this time, and it seemed to me that it illustrated well the problems that we studied in logic.
I didn't think anyone read the essay except Davidson, the logic teacher. She didn't even single out my essay from the others. She silently gave it an "Excellent" and that was it. The history teacher didn't say anything either.
The sensor horns on the principal's head spread out in irritation. He didn't like a student with problems, but he didn't want to lose the goose that lays golden eggs, that is, awards at competitions and scores in the school's rating.
"Mx. Klharr?" said Tucker.
"The question of transfer is decided by Mx. Gwalchtan's parents."
"But only after the student expresses their free opinion about what subjects they want to study and where. If you want, after me, Mx. Gwalchtan will talk to a psychologist."
"You're both free," the principal muttered. "Major Tucker, after the conversation, take Mx. Gwalchtan home and talk to their parents."
Tucker led me to his small office on the teachers' floor, pointed to the guest chair, sat down in the work chair, and said:
"I want to dot all the i's, Mx. Gwalchtan. Your essay really interested the Military Academy, but they will write to your parents without my participation. I must talk to you about something else." He made a movement with his hand, and a bottle of soda and two glasses flew from the shelf by the wall onto the table. And I felt a wave of Force. It turned out to be pleasant.
Oops... Tucker is a refugee from the Guard or the Order.
"I don't want to be either a Sith or a Jedi," I said. "Sith see enemies everywhere, and Jedi find Dark Force at every turn."
Tucker raised an eyebrow. It was either an irony or a surprise.
"I've heard that crippled and poor children are psychologically much more mature than their biological years. But you've gone a bit overboard with your age. Don't rush to grow up, buddy. Enjoy the carefree childhood while it lasts."
Yeah, my parents are smarter. They never said such nonsense.
"Childhood is a prison," I said. "Therefore there can be no child who does not want to become an adult as soon as possible."
"Be kind enough to explain, Mx. Gwalchtan," Tucker said discontentedly.
"You are under someone's control all the time; you are forbidden many things, and you must get permission for everything. And at the same time you constantly hear that at eighteen you will be in charge of yourself. And the law will guarantee you the right to speak, obliging the world to hear you. But until then, your opinion doesn't matter."
"Have you talked about this with your parents?"
"Many times," I answered. "Mum and Dad warned me that the world will always treat a cripple like a child, so if I want to be free and heard at eighteen, I need to learn independence and maturity early."
Tucker was surprised, thought about it, and said reluctantly:
"You are lucky with your parents."
"Very lucky," I nodded. "But I have a question for you, Major Tucker. My Mum says that a good army is not held together by obedience but by iron jawed. A good soldier must always be ready to make his own decisions and act independently, because the big shoulder straps cannot see where the charges are flying at you and the civilians behind your back."
"That's right," Tucker nodded. "A soldier has orders, but they act according to the situation, and if their willfulness ends in failure, they will go to hard labour for many years, but if one succeeds, they will be greeted as a hero. Remember the recent events in the Frontier Belt? A huge gang of terrorists attacked Kadvir's territory on the planet Ivrion. It was an agricultural sector with a small number of border guards. And the crew of one tank, four conscript girls, who were busy with another training raid, didn't listen to the order to return to the base but went to check on the village nearby. If they had died, everyone would have said, "To hell with them, the fools, but it's a shame about the tank." If the girls had been captured, everyone would have been angry that they had to be rescued to be brought to justice. But these young ladies repelled the attack of a large group of terrorists and saved the village. Houses, fields, and people were not damaged. The award to these brave and resourceful ladies was presented by the president in the Main Hall of Celebrations, and all of Kadvir learned of their feat."
"Sassy, self-confident, and unpredictable," I said. "That's what made them heroes, and that's what saved people. But why did those qualities of Anakin Skywalker cause so much negativity in the Jedi Order? After all, a Jedi always acts alone, far from the possibility of requesting reinforcements; they must bend a negatively minded and violence-used environment; they must be unpredictable in order not to be killed and, moreover, to complete the mission. I think the Sith have the same: a step to the right or left of the intended line is a crime, although reality requires a different approach."
"Anakin is a mediocre creature," Tucker said. "Just a bag of midi-chlorians. Anakin himself was worth little. Take the Force away from him, and he'd be an unremarkable office plankton or a repairman in a shop. There are crowds of such people on every corner, and they all cost one galactic credit per bundle. The Jedi have a truly tragic history." Tucker sighed and paused. He took a sip of soda and said: "Qui-Gon Jinn. With his intellect, unconventional thinking, and diplomatic talent, he would have made a brilliant career in any transgalactic corporation or in the politics of any country. And for the Jedi, he was like a suitcase without a handle, which is inconvenient to carry, but they don't want to throw him away so that the enemy doesn't get him, and they are afraid to put him in the garbage shredder because it will cause general indignation. I don't understand what made him stay in the Order. Same with Oliver Nullen and Ghrao Myodi with the Sith."
I thought about what was said. Qui-Gon's personality didn't attract my attention, but this seems to be due to inexperience and insufficient knowledge of life. I am only thirteen, and this is not enough to fully analyse the situation. I need to find more information, think about it, talk to my parents, and think it over again myself.
"You have done a lot of good work, Mx. Gwalchtan. But you have much more to do. And this work is too hard for a child. I am not afraid to tell you this, because you are mature enough to assess your capabilities sensibly. And I offer you my help. Your parents know nothing about the Force, do they?"
I bit my lip. Maybe I was wrong, and my silence doesn't save Mum and Dad but puts them in danger? And not only them. Gwalchtan-TNC gives thousands of people a living. During his army years, Dad gave up his dream of becoming a combat pilot to save the company.
But I'm not just a naive child with the Force who can be used in their games. I'm also a valuable hostage and the heir to a not very large but quite tangible fortune. There are too many who want to gain my trust and manipulate me for money.
There is a third reason for hesitation and doubt. My parents, sincerely wanting to save me, destroyed my health. I can't blame them; I don't know what I would have done if Forsean had been my child. But I don't want them to do something like that again, trying to protect me.
I need the support of someone who knows not only the Force. This person must also know the Order and the Guard well.
But how sincere is Tucker in his desire to help?
https://archiveofourown.org/works/57638197
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14376014/1/My-Own-Game
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A long time in a galaxy far, far away, everything was completely different from what was written in the history textbooks at the demand of the rulers and their rivals.
The teenager received abilities one didn't want. A happy life is destroyed, and survival and freedom can become empty words. But if the world wants to turn you into a toy, you can make it play your own game with you.
***
Self-consolation scribbles. I found a great Star Wars game but couldn't even get past the prologue because the controls were so complicated. This fanfic is NOT like that game. And it is AU for SW. I specifically try not to show who the character is, a boy or a girl, what their appearance is, so that readers can choose all this themselves, like in a video game.

— 2 —

The tattoo disappeared. As if it had never been there.
The Force grew even more and began to make problems more often.
I made a copy of the tattoo from the outer skin of a speeder and hung it around my neck on a braided leather strap. It looks like a normal teenager's trinket. And it's not visible under business or ceremonial clothes.
I don't know if this will help hide the extra midi-chlorians. But doing nothing is even worse.
I realised that circumstances might force me to run away from home to protect my parents. So I need to hide a disposable phone somewhere in the house. Then I can send messages to my parents.
And I'll also need to earn money somehow. Making flower bouquets and assembling speeders is good for a newly divorced housewife. People love unique models of speeders; assembling them from ready-made parts doesn't require much intelligence; what's important here is the taste and imagination of the designer, not the knowledge of the engineer. But they won't hire a child for such a job. I make speeders for friends, as do many teenagers from my school.
The problem is that places that flout the law to the point of hiring children don't need unique speeders—they're happy with stolen standard models. Or they build something that requires a weapons engineer.
And from what age can you work? I looked it up on the galaxnet.
On all normal planets, you can hire teenagers from the age of thirteen for jobs with first-level hardy and for three hours a day. The signature of one of the parents or guardians on the work permit is required; a child's ID card is also required.
Working in factories and fields is suicide. After the tattoo disappeared, my health improved, but not enough to do the work of droids.
That's the problem. Where people don't have money for droids, there is no chance of survival unless you were raised on the streets from birth. And anywhere where life is better, there is no need for illegal workers, especially teenagers.
Levelling up and selling video game characters is not for me; I'm bad at playing. I don't understand how to use any programmes to speed up levelling, and I don't know how to hide them from the game server's security systems.
Drawing, making music, and other things with the help of AI is already a better variat; I have experience and orders, but film studios, game developers, and others require a legal wallet, by which it will be easy to track me, and everything illegal threatens not only non-payment but also you will be robbed.
Well... I'll try the classics—I'll learn how to cook street food and dishes for simple cafes, which are usually made by a machine. On a backward planet, where fugitives usually hide, this is a good way to survive.
It remains to figure out the Force. How monopolised is its use? And why use it at all? Where, except for the dubious usefulness of the Jedi Order and the same Sith Guard, is it applicable?
I searched the galaxnet again. The results were surprising. It seemed that the Republic and the Empire, with the support of neighbouring states, had driven the midi-chlorians freaks into cages so that they wouldn't bother normal people, and were convincing the poor fellows of their usefulness by giving them absurd assignments. A sort of suitcase without a handle, which is inconvenient to carry, and throwing them away, that is, putting them to sleep like a sick dog, is inhumane.
Was there really no one among the Sith and Jedi who would understand this and escape to normal life?
It turned out, no. Questionable material, that is, those who turned out to be smarter, were sent to the Service Corps. And the Order and the Guard make good money on their slaves... Exploration Corps, Educational, Medical and Agricultural ones are part of the Service. I was hasty with the definition of "smarter": Jedi and Sith worked there for food.
It's very hard for a child to survive alone—almost impossible, so you'll tolerate even the Order and the Guard, but didn't the adults leave? Okay, the bulk of the Order and the Guard are staffed with good-for-nothing, but the Service Corps are specialists who will find a good vacancy anywhere.
Are their brains so polluted by propaganda that these people don't perceive themselves as individuals?
I want to become a Jedi or a Sith even less! If the concept of "even less" applies to "never wanted and don't want now".
But the ability to control the Force is necessary. Without it, I can't survive.
"What two know, even a hen knows."
It can't be that there are not abundant information leaks from the Order and the Guard—at least as a consequence of cyber attacks between them.
I started looking. And, besides exercises, I found a lot of things that dropped my mood deeper than the Ice Abyss.
I need to talk to my parents. I'm a realist: I can't figure it out without adults. And although I know a fair number of adults who know and can do more than my parents, who are wiser than them, only my Mum and Dad are sincerely interested in my well-being.
There was still time before supper, and I would come up with a cover for my questions so as not to worry my parents.
I searched the web again and found the perfect excuse. I sent the link to my phone and went to the garden. On such a wonderful evening, my Mum would probably order to serve the food for us there.
And so it turned out. The droids set the table, brought bowls and jugs for washing hands, and turned on cosy music.
I chatted a little with my parents about various trifles and then showed the page with the essay contest, in which I supposedly wanted to participate.
"I don't want to write banal things about the sides of the Force, the ideology of the Empire and the Republic, or about gender discrimination in the Order and the Guard. I'm more interested in the staff management in both institutions. But there's a lot that's unclear here."
"It's impossible to understand fools," Dad chuckled.
"What exactly didn't you understand?" Mum asked with interest.
The parents met when Dad wanted to see the authors of the winning project for the reorganisation of a loss-making enterprise that Gwalchtan-TNC had acquired through debt obligations. Dad is a very responsible and conscientious manager; he didn't delegate everything to his subordinates but wanted to personally talk to those who would revive the half-dead company, to listen to their evidence that revival and profitability are possible. Mum was a staff manager in this group. They fell in love with each other almost immediately, but Mum didn't give up her career after the wedding; she worked hard for four more years to achieve the prosperity of that very company. And when Mum wanted children, because of a difficult pregnancy she couldn't work as before, Dad taught her how to play the stock market so that she could work from her bedroom or the clinic. He very needed a smart trader, and Mum couldn't live without an interesting and challenging occupation. Mum liked her new job, and she continued to work at the stock exchange after she recovered from giving birth, but staff management was her first love, and she couldn’t resist the temptation.
"Mum, I don't understand how the Order ensured the loyalty of its people. For example, Yoda senses that Anakin is in pain but does nothing to help him. Same with the murder of the younglings in the Temple: Yoda knew what was happening, knew who the criminal was, but did nothing to stop the crime and save at least some of the children."
"I always thought he was in cahoots with Palpatine," Dad said. "There's no other way to explain it. Or all that talk about a Jedi always knowing if someone in the universe is using the Force is a lie. They don't even see if someone is using the Force right next to them."
"Well, yes," Mum nodded. "The Empire, which was supposedly hunting the Jedi, didn’t see Obi-Wan Kenobi, who escaped from Tatooine only with the Force, waving their stupid lightsaber, and Yoda training Luke Skywalker in a place more than visible to the Guard."
"It doesn't matter," I said. "I'm interested in something else. The Jedi say you have to listen to the Force; they have meditations and visions all the time, but when Anakin complains about nightmares about his mother's death, Kenobi doesn't take him to see Shmi. After all, they could have prevented her kidnapping or rescued her from captivity much earlier, when she was still cured. On the contrary, Kenobi said that dreams do not matter, and Anakin should ignore them. It turns out that Anakin was right when he said that Kenobi was to blame for Shmi's death just as much as the Tuskens. The Order didn't even think about buying Shmi out and finding her a job in the Republic. And when Anakin started having nightmares about his wife's possible death, Yoda told him "The fear of loss is a path to the dark side" and "Rejoice for those around you who transform into the Force." For that, any person would have smashed Yoda's mug! On what basis should people be loyal to the Order?"
"Anakin's story is a complete fabrication," Mum said. "Let everybody push it everywhere, not less than Pinocchio's story, but Anakin himself is no more real than the wooden boy. But at the same time, Anakin's story is very indicative. The Order has always had a problem with the abundant transition of Jedi and Padawans to the Guard. The Sith have everything the same, from the mores and customs within their institution to the transitions to the Jedi, but the Forceans have nowhere else to run, since after a Jedi or Sith education, people are good only as janitors on droidless planets."
"And the Service Corps?" I asked.
"Same thing. Without subsidies from the Republic and the Empire, the Jedi and the Sith would starve to death. The Force is not needed anywhere. There is no demand for it."
"Then why does Kadvir give the Order and the Guard children?" I began to approach the necessary topic.
"They give away those who aren't needed by their families, which means they will still grow up as a source of problems. My parents are poor, semiliterate refugees. But they did everything so that I could study, not work. I received grants—first for school, then for university. Back in high school, I used the prize from one of the competitions I won to buy my parents training to become bakers. And in my first year of work after university, I took out a mortgage on a bakery and a house next to it."
Wow, what a twist. My Mum is a Forsean? I wonder what my grandparents were like. They were always kind and cheerful; their recent death was a great grief for our family. But the hard life had taken its toll on their health.
In any case, the Force was of no use to anyone. To make buns, cakes, and bread according to recipes that droids can't handle, you need completely different talents. Our cook is also a living person, not a droid.
But how did Mum cope with the Force? She doesn't have a tattoo. At least, not where her skin isn't covered by a bikini, which has never been particularly modest.
Luke Skywalker didn't suffer from uncontrollable manifestations of the Force, either, nor did Anakin. And both of them are declared to be powerful Forseans. Even if their story is fiction, it is based on the adventures of many real Forseans.
Why is everything so problematic for me?
https://archiveofourown.org/works/57638197
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14376014/1/My-Own-Game
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A long time in a galaxy far, far away, everything was completely different from what was written in the history textbooks at the demand of the rulers and their rivals.
The teenager received abilities one didn't want. A happy life is destroyed, and survival and freedom can become empty words. But if the world wants to turn you into a toy, you can make it play your own game with you.
***
Note: Self-consolation scribbles. I found a great Star Wars game but couldn't even get past the prologue because the controls were so complicated. This fanfic is NOT like that game. And it is AU for SW. I specifically try not to show who the character is, a boy or a girl, what their appearance is, so that readers can choose all this themselves, like in a video game.

— 1 —

Everyone hates it when someone tells them about their illnesses. So I will say very little just to understand the situation.
I've been sick since birth, all my thirteen years. And I've even gotten used to treating it with humour: "If something hurts, then you're still alive, which means you can change everything for the better."
Of course, I rarely go to school; I study mostly remotely, and when I come to class, I sit quietly in the corner. All my friends are online. But there are many of them; they are busy with all sorts of interesting things and can tell Malory from maltol.
So I think I'm lucky. It could have been much worse, including a coffin or a box for a vegetable person.
But today my tattoo suddenly started hurting. That's right—not my head, heart, or stomach, but my tattoo.
I've had it for a long time; I was only a few months old when my nanny (yes, a person, not a droid; my parents were concerned about me socialising faster) made it to protect me from the evil eye. Mum immediately fired this fool, making sure that she never worked with kids again. But the parents didn't remove the tattoo; they were afraid to subject the child to another medical procedure in addition to many. Over time, everyone forgot about the tattoo.
And today it reminded me of itself. I went into the dressing room, opened the three-panel mirror to see my back, and took off my T-shirt. The tattoo was still there, between the shoulder blades, but it glowed and shimmered no worse than a supermarket sign. Even brighter, because in daylight the lights of shops and clubs are not visible, and the tattoo shone in spite of all the lamps in the dressing room.
And then suddenly my glasses started to bother me. It even hurt my eyes! And I couldn't see well. I tore off my glasses and realised that I could see perfectly well without them. It couldn't be... I ran out onto the balcony to check.
Unbelievable! I can see the whole garden, the fence, and even the neighbors' garden without glasses. Everything is clear and distinct up to the horizon, which is quite far away on a sunny summer afternoon. I didn't have time to think about it; the phone reminded me of the need to get dressed for lunch.
Breakfasts and suppers belong only to our family; they are informal and fun, but lunch and dinner almost always have important guests, so I have to live up to them.
Today I was even glad of the ceremonial clothes. Their thick, heavy fabric completely hid the glow of the tattoo.
I don't want to pretend that I'm sick so as not to scare my parents, and it's impossible to show strangers that such things are happening to me. For the first time, etiquette and ceremony are useful.
Before the dining room doors opened, I washed my hands at a special fountain and entered the room. Only my father was at the table. I greeted him ceremoniously, wished him a pleasant appetite, and sat down at the table.
Hmm... There is little cutlery on the table. Is it really possible for me to chat with my parents instead of pretending to smile at other people's boring mugs?
"You ordered contact lenses after all," Dad said approvingly. "Well done. You're almost an adult now; it's time to take care of your appearance."
Dad has glasses. Mum, too. But they have little diopters, so the frame is light and elegant, adding beauty to their faces.
"Where's Mum?" I asked.
"She's having lunch with Greta Funberg."
"A nightmare," I replied. This old crocodile was the last person in the world you'd want to talk to.
"Business is business," Dad sighed. And he suggested, "I have some free time after lunch. Let's make a bouquet for Mum in her workroom. She needs to feel our support and gratitude."
I nodded. Everyone says I have a talent for floristry. I don't know. But I like making bouquets. But I like putting together droids and speeders even more.
Dad will probably start a game of tag in the garden, pretending that I won. He still thinks I'm a baby. But this he needs to relax, be a kid for a while, and limber up. Of course, he takes care of his body and works out on the machines and in the pool, but it's not the same. It's work. And Dad needs a rest.
The droids got the food from the dumbwaiter and served it on the table. Dad and I started eating lunch.
The tattoo was burning more and more. Any more, and I wouldn't be able to hide it. Luckily, I managed to get the painkiller without being noticed and hide it among the pills I was supposed to take with my meals, and Dad didn't know that something was wrong with me.
I am not afraid or ashamed to ask for help; I have no complexes, but first I want to understand what happened.
And then I saw that all the objects in the dining room, and Dad, and food, and things, and droids had a slight glow of different colours. It looked as if everything around was covered in barely noticeable, almost completely transparent clouds.
Very interesting.
If books and movies tell the truth, this is how the Jedi and Sith see the world.
But I've been through so many tests in excellent clinics since birth that extra midi-chlorians didn't have a chance to go unnoticed.
I must do the tests myself. Scanners and programmes for such analysis are not available to ordinary people, but if you show a little creativity and remember very ancient manuscripts, you can make your own test potion from ingredients that are available in any supermarket. I just have to rummage around in the kitchen, among the spices, and in the pantry with cleaners.
It's useful to be a nerd.
I inserted neutral words in my dad's story about work, noting with a lower level of attention what would be useful in the future (My parents taught me, this is an important skill for business life!), and I myself thought that I didn't want to get into the Jedi Academy. If for a half-pauper, barely literate farmer from the savage Tatooine the Order became a good social lift, then for me it is degradation. In addition, the Jedi take children to their braindryer when they are tiny, depriving them of any connection with their families and changing their names and those crumbs of memories that the little ones managed to accumulate.
Of course, there are families where parents then law must have to be left without children, and fairness would have left them without reproductive organs, because a shelter is better than a house like theirs, but I have a wonderful family! Even if we lived on welfare in a council flat, my parents were a wonderful family. And Kadvir is not Tatooine; here, even in the council quarter, there is a normal life, with grants and online special courses for talented children. I know this for sure because my parents are teaching me about business life, gradually handing over the management of a charitable foundation.
I also want to be as far away from the Sith School as possible. Kadvir is in the neutral zone, so we are free from the veil of lies of the New (How many new ones were? Three or four?) Republic, and everyone here knows that the Empire never killed little Forseans. On the contrary, the Empire gathered them for training first in orphanages, then, when they grew up, handed them over to a Sith Knight, who lived like an ordinary citizen and had one, sometimes two charges of different ages. This looked like an ordinary single father or mother, which exist throughout the universe and whose name is legion, and therefore was imperceptible to the uninformed.
By the way, this semblance of family and home was a serious reason for a considerable number of Jedi to go over to the Emperor's side. The Republics, whether Old or New, are silent about this.
But I don't like the Empire. It's the same hypocritical, semi-slave Republic, only from a different angle. Besides, the Empire is poorer because the state constantly interferes in the commerce and personal lives of citizens, and this spoils the economy.
Unfortunately, neutral territories are too weak to completely get rid of the influence of the Republic and the Empire. But still, "it is not the Jedi and Sith who win, but the machine guns." Neutral territories didn't abandon the old gunpowder weapons, TNT, and the like. Not on purpose; it was a forced measure due to the lack of funds for blasters and plasmauders. And suddenly practice showed that the Force runs away at the sight of a machine gun.
Living in a perpetual war is a dead end, so neutral territories balance between the Empire and the Republic, sell food, civilian goods, and weapons to both sides, and remain free.
And yet, Kadvir is forced to hand over children with an excess of midi-chlorians to the Jedi or Sith.
So it turns out that the tattoo was not done by a crazy nanny, but by my parents? And it hid the midi-chlorians? Perhaps this is also related to the fact that I was sick all the time.
Ohh... I don't know what I would do in their place.
If I think about it, it's better to be sick at home than to be healthy in the orphanage or at the Academy.
But I'm growing, my midi-chlorians are increasing, and the tattoo doesn't hide them anymore.
I don't want to lose my family to the ravings of a herd of moronsaurs, no matter if they are Light or Dark.
And I need freedom. I am a Kadvirishone, not a Republican or Imperial puppet!
Lunch was over, and Dad and I went to pick a flower bouquet. I tried to make it as gentle and soothing as possible, and in Mum's favourite colours.
Ikebana is very difficult work; I forgot about the Force, the tattoo, and so on. The damn newfound abilities reminded me of themselves when I was inserting the energy crystals in the speeder's engine.
The engine melted, and the workshop almost caught fire. Everything turned out well only because the fire extinguisher itself flew into my hands when I thought about it.
Now I'm sitting in the gazebo in the garden and wondering what to do next. I need to learn to manage the Force before it kills me with its accidental release, but how can I do this without harming my family or becoming a slave to one of the two Orders?
I can't cope without the help of adults. However, any adult would want to use me and especially my parents. After all, there are many Forseans, but there is always little money. Even if we, the Gwalchtans, are far from the richest in Kadvir, it is still a tasty morsel.
I don't know. And I can't imagine who to ask for advice. One thing is clear: my parents don't know what to do either. Otherwise, they wouldn't have given me a tattoo.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/57638197
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14376014/1/My-Own-Game
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I can't finish the Sherlock and John fanfic because I still haven't found the song for the last chapter. Stupid NNs bring the wrong thing. "Sadness > despair > a glimpse of luck > we will be happy now and forever." The music is rock, folk, or blues. The AI doesn't understand.

https://mstdn.party/@aliyn_raven
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AU! No summary so far. It's about music, show business and a new life after a disaster. John+Sherlock. Slowburn.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14237516/1/Soft-silk-is-hard-to-tear
https://archiveofourown.org/works/47086126

Emil, thanks for the preliminary reading.

Irene Adler, completely naked, meticulously examined herself in a full-length mirror in her dressing room. She was not going to hide from the world that she had plastic surgery and Botox injections. If Cher turned such things into a successful show that added popularity and fees to her, then Irene can too.
However, for some reason, what gave Cher a new charm became fatal for Irene.
No, there are no complaints against the surgeon. He did a skin lift, and Botox is great. But the falsehood is still visible. And she strangely added ten years of age to Irene instead of reducing it by five years, as she and the doctor had planned.
[It would be better for me to leave small wrinkles than look like a plastic mummy,] she thought.
But top managers on TV channels don't like even small wrinkles. And many young beauties are hanging around their necks. Irene was flying out of the love section of the media market. And she had nothing to advance to the heights and stay there without the help of lovers. "I'm not Julia Louis-Dreyfus or Mary Berry (18)". Irene never deceived herself.
Of course, she has money. And there are investments that provide a stable income. However, she has become a common person. Another rich ordinariness among a billion of the same.
Not a star.
Not a queen.
The nobody.
Or not?
Sherlock Holmes texted her before the bandages were removed from Irene. She wrote to him a lot, saying that she always wanted him, but now she could not come. Sherlock didn't answer.
Irene realised he was not interested in her. Sherlock wanted to use her. And given what he himself told her about his attitude towards her, Sherlock was about to shove Irene into someone's bed.
This was out of the question! Irene was never shy about using sex to advance her career, but she always decided for herself who, when, and how to bestow her body and acted only in her own interests. She's not Readybed!
At the clinic, Irene pondered plans for revenge against Sherlock. However, now the mirror has made her change her plans. If Irene solves Sherlock's problems solely with her wits and diplomatic skills, it will turn her into one of the big bosses of the show business world.
It's not glory. But it is power and strength. This will make her the chosen one.
And Sherlock loves only the mind. He never noticed Irene's beauty in the days when it was natural. But Sherlock was infatuated with her for a couple of days; he admired Irene when she outsmarted Mycroft.
Irene winced at the thought of Mycroft. He almost ruined everything. And Irene found out in practice that blackmail is a profitable occupation but too troublesome.
But if she solves the problems of the victims of blackmail, she can rule the world. Any information can work for the client if it is properly presented to the public. Irene also became convinced of this in practice when she tried her hand at blackmail.
It's time to take advantage of this discovery.
And Sherlock doesn't care about her appearance. This used to infuriate Irene, but today she appreciated the benefits of such an attitude.
Irene didn't understand why she was so passionate — almost to the point of obsession — about Sherlock. She always considered herself free from love, passion, and other nonsense. She took and conquered hearts; she made people's souls burn but remained cold and detached. But Sherlock wasn't like anyone else. He isn't a man at all, but a fabulous elf. Irene wanted him like crazy. And she didn't abandon her attempts to charm him, to break through his coldness and detachment.
Irene threw on her dressing gown and went into the office, where she started to look for information about what problems Sherlock got himself into. It must be something incredible if it surpasses the scandal that erupted around Sherlock and to which he was indifferent.
But there is nothing online about Sherlock specifically. In any case, there was nothing at the time of that SMS. After that, a small scandal began with the soundtrack for the clip, which was assembled from pieces. And it was absurd: the video, by definition, is not the work of a singer but of a sound engineer. But the scandal about consumer fraud flared up seriously. However, he was interrupted by a scandal with a claque company disguised as an animal shelter.
But this is interesting. In order for the police to undertake such an investigation, Mycroft had to put pressure on her. But he didn't save his brother from a much worse scandal. The synthesised song didn't harm Sherlock; it even raised his rating as a songmaker: no one has ever created such lively and emotional audio tracks. Irene hadn't heard the song, but everyone wrote about it that way, and Irene had no reason to doubt such a characterization. Otherwise, video game makers wouldn't be bombarding Sherlock with offers.
However, Mycroft tried to bring to the fore not the talent of his brother but the firm-claque. And it was incredible! Mycroft didn't save his brother when he was truly in danger but rushed to the attack against what could benefit Sherlock.
Or is it not about Sherlock? But who, then, is so important to Mycroft? Is it the song performer?
Irene found photos of the singer.
[God, what's the spit-up?] she exclaimed with disgust.
Sherlock had always been indifferent to appearance, but to that extent... Irene even doubted for a moment whether she needed Sherlock if he coveted such a creature.
[Mycroft!] she figured it out. [Is he, too?]
Unbelievable... Both brilliant brothers stuck to this? And it turned out that Sherlock called Irene because she must distract Mycroft from... what was his name? ...John Watson?
"I will destroy you, Sherlock Holmes!" Irene exclaimed, enraged.
***
To prevent his name from being at the epicentre of the scandal, Anderson transferred all copyrights to his songs, lyrics, music, and arrangements to Scotland Garden Records. The studio, of course, was concerned about its own reputation, not the fate of Anderson — even if Scotland Garden Records would kick Anderson out and order compensation from him in favour of John Watson, the reputational damage was still too great. So the studio found some guy from the third tier of vocalists. An unremarkable specimen for sub-singing, without the slightest chance of a solo career. Such a "saboteur" can't stain the honour of the studio — he couldn't even be considered a full-time employee, just an occasional part-timer, nobody. But the scandal turned him into a famous blogger-hater. And crowds gathered to watch him swear and viciously ridicule music and movie celebrities.
Anderson even envied his rapidly growing popularity. And he regretted that he didn't choose this career option for himself. But Anderson had to admit that Lestrade was right: he does not have such a sharp and funny tongue as Joe Harrison. The guy was a third-rate singer but a deadly great hater. And although the reason for his hatred of John Watson, which pushed Joe Harrison to the claque company, was hastily invented, Harrison's talent for evil speeches made it convincing. The name Scotland Garden Records has remained unsullied. And the studio even scored a few reliability points when they paid John Watson compensation.
And Anderson turned into an office plankton on a small salary. One new song a month, constant concerts — the studio was not going to stand on ceremony with him and decided to use it for wear and tear.
Anderson could have left, but the rumours spread quickly, and now he could only work for his own confectionery chain. And its popularity rests solely on the musical fame of Anderson. The day he disappears from MTV and BBC Radio 2, the network will go bankrupt, unable to compete.
[It is necessary now, while I have fame, to invest more in the brand and promote new products. However, it takes a hell of a lot of time. But I'll be busy all the time. And my wife will not deal with these... She only knows how to spend my money. I can't even divorce her; she'll leave me a beggar!]
And on the horizon problems with the throat loomed because of overworking.
***
Stella Hopkins asked John to rehearse a song with him. What he did with Dimmock's singing was fantastic! Dimmock was a good singer — a very good one — but after studying with John, his singing turned into something fantastic.
Stella frequently received songs from Sherlock, but he was always unhappy with her. Stella was glad that he gave her songs at all — Sally Donovan could only dream of this. But Sherlock never explained what he didn't like. And John... His musical education is superficial, but his ability to perceive music and use intuition is incredible.
If not for Dimmock's jealousy! Stella was afraid that John would leave for the village again. Moreover, all or almost all the leading singers of Scotland Garden Records wanted to study with him. And that really pissed off Sherlock!
Stella could expect a lot from him, but not the search for a secluded farm in Sussex. Does he want to take John there? Does he want to steal him from Dimmock?
Stella smiled contentedly. Scotland Garden Records hasn't been this interesting and full of passion for a long time.
**********
(18)
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AU! No summary so far. It's about music, show business and a new life after a disaster. John+Sherlock. Slowburn.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14237516/1/Soft-silk-is-hard-to-tear
https://archiveofourown.org/works/47086126

Emil, thanks for the preliminary reading.

[Why are all people so obsessed with sex?] Sherlock thought, lying on a wide bed at the love hotel. The prostitute that he picked up in the lobby of the hotel stroked his stomach.
"Will we see each other?" She asked. "I will not take the money from you. Not now and not in the future. You are cute. I really had a pleasure with you."
Sherlock removed her hand, got up, and started dressing.
"Did I do something wrong?" The girl asked excitedly. "If you want something special, I'm doing everything."
"There are still tips here." Sherlock put the money on the pillow. "You know your business well, and your cat needs a veterinarian until he infects the second cat."
"What?" the girl was amazed.
"There is more wool on your stockings from a red cat than from a white one."
Sherlock left the room. The prostitute didn't lie; her orgasm was unfeigned. But what is so special about sex? Mediocre pleasure, dull preliminary gestures. And if you imagine that after that you still need to communicate... Oh Dear God, no. Love relationships are even more boring than procedural sex for health.
But.
Sherlock hastened to hide from the unresolved problem in a taxi. Did the experiment show that nothing had changed? Yes. So there is nothing to talk about. Sherlock still doesn't like contact with other people's bodies and still does not see the difference between a man and a woman. They are all equally burdensome. And the pleasure of both options is greatly overrated. And all the thoughts and desires associated with John are just accidental side effects. John is right when he says that Sherlock sees him as a replacement for his temporarily lost voice. But Mike Stamford assures that the treatment is going well, and Sherlock will soon be able to sing himself no worse than before. John will become unnecessary.
...The first thing Sherlock saw when he returned home was Molly Hooper and John Watson, who were sitting at the table in the living room very close to each other. Sherlock didn't know his rage could be so strong. However, even stronger was the fear that other people might see his feelings.
Sherlock froze in the doorway, listening to what Molly and John were talking about. They could have nothing in common!
Molly moved her finger over the touchpad and explained to John how to fill out the search utility.
"It needs to be clarified," said John. "Emergency workers" aren't only doctors, nurses, and assistants of nurses. There are still electricians, systems administrators, and accountants. Medicine in the United Kingdom is formally free, but in fact people pay taxes for it, and the hospital should report expenses in front of three departments. Therefore, the ambulance clinic has many employees who understand nothing about medicine but regularly occur near the coffee machine for staff and in the dining room. And doctors and nurses often discuss the salvation of the next laureate of the Darwin Awards, who was poisoned by household chemicals because he didn't read the safety rules on the packaging. And this we have not yet considered agents of pharmaceutical companies, representatives of providers of provisions, plumbers, and other coming persons. But about them later. First, we will find those relatives and acquaintances "Still Waters", who were on ambulance staff."
"Isn't it all too difficult?" Molly asked doubtfully.
"Sherlock said any poisoner is a strategist. This means that the killer was collecting all sorts of useful information long before he decided to kill Tim Rogers."
"Or he asked a medical professional he knew when he planned the murder," Molly said. "It's more likely. Or even this wasn't a medical professional, but that acquaintance who heard a lot about deaths from an accident."
"Bobby's talk about falling down stairs and wiring accidents," John replied. "Because this was a tip from an ambulance worker. Not everyone understands toxicology among medical professionals in ordinary life. This is a rather rare specialisation for civilian medicine."
Oh, so interesting! Sherlock starts to listen carefully. Turns out, among the participants of "Still Waters" no one was a student of the Department of Chemistry or Medical at the University.
But John unexpectedly showed more intelligence than Sherlock had expected. And it was intriguing.
However, John doesn't need to snuggle up to Molly like that to look for the killer! And Sherlock went from the stairs to the kitchen, slammed the door loudly, and started noisily looking for everything that was needed to make tea. Molly immediately rushed to save the kitchen. And John left. And returned half an hour later in a suit.
[Mycroft, I'll kill you!] Sherlock decided. John doesn't like costumes. But he respects tradition and will never go to the theatre in jeans and a sweater, even for an afternoon show.
John left the flat, and Sherlock texted Irene Adler.

Come to London immediately.

Sherlock hated this annoying, boring dummy, but Mycroft had been in love with her in the recent past. Well... Yes. "Love" is not the right word to apply to Mycroft. But at the sight of her, he almost choked with saliva. And he paid too much attention to the magazines, where there were naked photos of Ms. Adler. Although Irene herself strove in every possible way to start an affair with Sherlock, she will not refuse the career benefits that a connection with Mycroft brings. And that's why Irene will not let Mycroft be near John much better than Sherlock can. For the sake of such a service, Sherlock can compromise his principles and give her a second song.
"One Song Star" Irene Adler wasn't exactly a bad singer: she received a scholarship to study at the New Hampshire Art College in operatic vocals and then got a job at Teatr Wielki in Warsaw. But she never appeared on stage because she was on the farthest "substitute bench". The theatre is very good, but Irene Adler is a so-so actress. It is a voice without a soul. And she went into pop vocals. And when it turned out that it needed fire and passion even more than in opera, Irene made a career through the underpants of art managers and producers of both sexes. She was a guest on many talk shows, often starring nude. All publications were in prestigious magazines, and nudity was not pornographic but like art. However, this didn't change the fact that, apart from meat, Irene has nothing. Sherlock never even called her by her first name: "This woman" — that's all.
Mycroft introduced them. He wanted Sherlock to give her a song, or better yet, sing a duet with her. Sherlock had to give her the song to get Mycroft to keep this woman away from him. Especially since the news about her reached the Mummy; and Mrs. Holmes started talking about good girls from worthy families, with whom her sons must meet. Irene's departure to the US to shoot a video for Sherlock's song calmed Mummy's zeal. But Sherlock would not sing a duet with Irene even under threat of execution.
But now, for the first time, this woman can become useful. Sherlock knew that one day this would happen, and therefore he didn't delete her contacts from his phone and allowed her to sometimes send messages.
***
Anderson nearly exploded with rage. John Watson refused to sing a duet with him! This non-entity, released from oblivion by a psychopath, should have been happy that the studio gave him a contract and a real start with a famous singer.
John Watson said he was not interested in a stage career. But he's recording a second song for Sherlock Holmes.
The dissembler!
Sally Donovan, contrary to her rule "Have sex only with married men because they keep silent", flirts with Watson, forgetting about the existence of Anderson and her connection with him. And, judging by the fact that she baked the pie herself, Sally wants to get Watson not only for sex.
And this was the best proof that Sherlock Holmes won unfairly. John Watson is a fake. This nondescript little man couldn't sing himself. He is a screen for a voice that is assembled for a phonogram. Moreover, everything was done with prohibited psychotropic technologies. A living person can't have such charm! Especially if the person is so unattractive. When all of Anderson's work went unnoticed because of Sherlock Holmes, there were no questions. Sherlock Holmes is a psychopath, and Anderson hated him. However, Sherlock's beauty, charisma, and magical voice are undeniable. But John Watson...
No.
Philip Anderson can't lose to such a nonentity!
However, there is a cure for parasites. Claques. This service was forgotten in the middle of the last century when live sound broadcasts from theatres to cinemas appeared. Actors stopped buying applause for themselves and whistles for competitors, and newspaper critics became the most popular commodity. But the twenty-first century and cheap internet in every flat and even in every pocket brought claqueurs back to the market. A large part of popular bloggers willingly did the work of claqueurs or specialised only in it.
Peanut Galleries. Hooligans from the cheapest seats in the theatre shouted salacious comments about what was happening on stage and pelted the actors with peanuts — not for free, of course. Now this activity has changed its face. Bloggers insulted celebrities on the streets and provoked them into fights so that bloggers could get scandalous photos that would attract more advertisers to their blogs.
Art colleges or producers and managers teach artists how to survive and behave in such conditions before they are released as debutants on stage, on television, and on the screens of the cinema. But John Watson is not ready for this. It will break him instantly. And pull Sherlock down with him.
Anderson didn't need to contact the claqueurs and peanut gallerists on his own. The firms that hired them operated from behind the scenes at charities and animal shelters. If the true activities of such an institution became known, the artists had an alibi: they wanted to do good deeds and were deceived, not buy a dirty victory in the competitive fight.
And Anderson called the director of the shelter to set up a meeting.
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AU! No summary so far. It's about music, show business and a new life after a disaster. John+Sherlock. Slowburn.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14237516/1/Soft-silk-is-hard-to-tear
https://archiveofourown.org/works/47086126

Emil, thanks for the preliminary reading.

John's determined expression didn't please Sherlock at all. And the words were even worse.
"I love you very much, Sherlock. But this isn't the kind of love that causes people to fall on all horizontal surfaces in the house and then play Scrabble or walk in the park, holding hands."
Sherlock was about to protest, but John, who had dutifully done what Sherlock wanted since the day they started working in the studio in Sussex's town, stopped him with such an authoritative gesture that all the words stuck in Sherlock's throat.
"I'm moving to another flat," John said. "This will make it easier for you to grasp reality. There's one more song left, so if you're still interested in my vocals, we'll continue. I'd be happy to continue the friendship, but that doesn't seem to be something you'd be interested in."
"You... No! You want me!" Sherlock exclaimed in the tone of a forensic prosecutor.
"I also want to be a surgeon," John replied calmly. Too much peace. It made him feel terrible. And Sherlock said:
"You can't operate on people! And you never can."
"And you can never be a lover. You have a lot of passion and charm. But they are not for people. This is for songs only."
"I love you!" Sherlock was outraged.
"You've never seen me," John said, shaking his head in negation. "You look at me as a temporary replacement for your own voice, so you try to keep it closer to you. And you couldn't help but appreciate the convenience of being next to someone who can make balti gosht without burning down the kitchen. But you never saw me. And now you don't see."
He went to the door on the street. Sherlock followed him. And when Sherlock was in the middle of the stairs, he said:
"You are the other half of my soul."
John stopped at the door but didn't remove his hand from the knob. He is half turning to look at Sherlock. And he answered:
"I'm not a piece of something or someone. And you too."
John went outside. And Sherlock froze on the stairs. Why, when it comes to John, does he always not know what to do? Running after John barefoot and in a goddamn morning gown? Or wait until John calms down, enjoys Dimmock, and returns home in a more conversational state?
Sherlock has always thought that "second half", "soulmate," and things alike are nothing more than stupid and tasteless metaphors. But it turned out that this is a fact. Incredible, wonderful, magnificent fact.
However, John was not happy about this. And he left.
At the thought of Dimmock getting John's lips, cock, and ass, Sherlock curled up on the stairs like an offended child, wrapping his arms around himself.
And then he jumped up. This was not it! Sherlock needs John's arms, which are strong and empathetic at the same time. Sherlock couldn't even think that someone's hands could be so careful and tender. However, when he had a little argument with the guys from the cafe, John treated his abrasions and checked for fractures. Sherlock got to know John's power well, and it acted like Viagra. But his empathy and tenderness turned out to be drugs.
Dimmock isn't good enough for all this! He's just mediocre. He is cute, always ready to get laid, but so ordinary that he isn't visible.
Maybe John has never heard Dimmock sing?
Oh, this is a great idea! Sherlock jumped up and even jumped on the stairs, pleased with his genius. He will now write an excellent song in which he will explain to John how wonderful it is that he has become part of the soul and life of Sherlock, his other half and completion. Even if John himself doesn't notice that since the first day of work in that same Sussex studio, he has been walking without a cane and his hand doesn't tremble, Sherlock will explain to him in the only language that Sherlock speaks flawlessly and that John understands well: the music.
Common words and conversations only spoil everything, and music creates perfection even from problems and chaos.
It usually took Sherlock a week to complete a song. He didn't rivet one-day consumer goods. All his songs were masterpieces. But now Sherlock has created a pearl in two and a half hours. He even made a midi-karaoke file to make it easier for John to see how ordinary and uninteresting Dimmock is. John... John-John-John-John! Sherlock couldn't let go of him, even if he hadn't really taken possession of him.
Given the London traffic and the finickiness of Dimmock, who loves preliminary ceremonies, John did not have time to get down to the most important thing. And now he will never start with this object.
Sherlock called Dimmock with a malevolent and triumphant smile and said that if he wanted to get Sherlock's song, he should immediately come to the audition.
Of course, this snob instantly forgot his arrogance, and he was an hour and a half later in Sherlock's living room. And John came with him.
John liked the song. Sherlock enjoyed his admiring, adoring gaze.
Dimmock even glowed with the anticipation of success. He did a warm-up of his throat, read the text printed on a sheet of paper again, put it on the table, and started to sing under karaoke, looking at the laptop screen. Of course, Dimmock ruined the song. It couldn't be otherwise. It's not his level.
"You sing wonderfully," John said. "But what if you play a different image of the hero?"
Dimmock looked at him in surprise. And Sherlock was worried. What the hell is another image?
John said:
"He's a predator. Manipulator. He will destroy this girl as soon as he gets her."
Sherlock gasped for a moment, as if someone had punched him in the gut. And John continued:
"But he's trying to make her feel guilty, so she doesn't fight back. Because he can get hurt in a fight. But he is too smart and prudent to put himself at risk."
Sherlock didn't understand. This shouldn't have happened! John had to throw himself into his arms.
Dimmock didn't understand either.
"But why? He loves her. And he says that they are two halves of the same fate."
John shook his head negatively.
"The idea of two halves of one whole, soulmates, and the like is one of the meanest and most criminal things because it not only takes away individuality, freedom, and selfhood from humans but also deprives them of further personal development because any development is always a change. And half of something or someone must remain unchanged."
Dimmock was puzzled. And it seemed to Sherlock that the whole world known to him was collapsing. However, John didn't stop there and said:
"Only those who want to parasitize other people can support the idea of soulmates and two halves that need to be united."
Dimmock was lost in thought about what he had heard, and Sherlock dreamed of a dose of heroin and of it being big. It is impossible to survive this otherwise. Why doesn't John want to hear him?!
Dimmock sang again. And it was terrible: the cries of a gibbon in the mating season. Sherlock was about to tell him to go to hell, but John got ahead of him.
"No," he interrupted the song. "There is no need for such outright aggression. It's not rape, it's bait hunting. Everything should sound like a passionate love confession but scare the listener at the same time. It's a double-bottom song, and you need to show them both."
"What nonsense?!" Sherlock exclaimed with outrage. But Dimmock said, looking at John with a gentle, playful smile:
"It's too confusing for a simple guy like me, Dr. Watson. Maybe you can show me how?"
Sherlock started up. Will John sing his song? Is it good or bad? In any case, it's better than if he went to have sex with Dimmock again.
And John looked at Sherlock and said with his wonderful bright smile:
"Do you not mind?"
"No," Sherlock muttered. As if he didn't write it for John!
And John did a warm-up of his throat, took a printout, sat on the windowsill, and started to sing.
He didn't move to the energetic song of what Sherlock now realised was a teenage style. John conducted only lightly with his free hand. And this was enough for him to subdue the world. Sherlock watched Dimmock with displeasure, and Dimmock was fascinated.
And the singing... John even made the Union Jack pillow to desire himself. Yes, now he was insanely predatory and dangerous. But it was even more alluring, gentle, and seductive.

My eyes with your vision, (17)
My choice but always your decision,
My play with your direction/
Well it's my lead but always your connection
But when I look into your eyes you don't believe me.
I can see it in your eyes you don't believe.

Sherlock wanted to catch John. But he himself turned out to be in John's captivity. And the worst part, Sherlock realised, was that he didn't mind dissolving into John and being swallowed up by him.
And bloody Dimmock looks at John like he's about to start stripping, begging John to get laid on him immediately.
But why doesn't John want to own any of them?

My words, your expression.
My land, always your possession.
My song, your production.
My expense is always your deduction.
But when I look into your eyes you don't believe me,
I can see it in your eyes you don't believe me.

John doesn't need to absorb anyone. He doesn't want to own anyone. It will take away his freedom. John wants communication and interaction, he needs people-universes that are free and independent. But Sherlock did not know how to be a free and independent universe with someone. He always ran away in solitude to save himself. From the hysterical dictatorship of the mother, from the boredom of everyday life, from the stupidity of people, from his inability to communicate.
And now Sherlock didn't know how to interact with John if one didn't absorb the other if they were free persons but not components of something.
**********
(17) "You Don't Believe" by The Alan Parsons Project
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w24l3lmwQrE
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